Idle time
By stephen99
12/8/2010 1:55:37 AM
Today was good I spent most of the day studying for an exam i am taking for work and doing homework for school. After that i felt like I didn't need to do anything else today so i just went home and made sushi to eat during the week so I'm not to stressed during finals. After that i went and played basketball with a few friends and got home around 830 after that my wife still wasn't home and I was tired so i really didn't want to study so i just watched TV. I feel like it was a lot of idle time that i could have spent doing other things like homework and studying. But i just thought i could give myself a break but it turned out to be too long. Today i tried to fast and i just ended up drinking water right after I felt bad i didn't remember but i am going to try again tomorrow.


I missed it    
"Stephen, did you do something wrong? You seem so upset at yourself, like you failed something some how. You worked and studied, and then you took a break. Maybe you procrastinated a little, and you didn't fast the way you wanted, but you're not a machine. You need a break. You need to make and consume food, you need exercise, and you need to rest and relax. If the bow is strung all the time....

Did you give in to your addiction? It didn't sound like it, so congratulations!! It sounds like you had a really good, successful, fun day, that you should enjoy. Don't let those days pass without noticing just how much fun and how glorious they are. They aren't destroyed with wickedness or complicated by a million things on your plate. Life gets MUCH busier when you have several kids and several jobs...

Anyway, it seems like you had an awesome day, and you shouldn't be upset at yourself in any way! So, you weren't PERFECT. So what?

Sometimes I think we struggle with the addictions that we struggle with because we demand perfection of ourselves. We don't want to let ourselves fail in any way...and yet somehow we give ourselves this one HORRIBLE way to fail, and we live with it, telling ourselves, "well, at least that sin is the ONLY way I am imperfect; I just need to overcome that sin, and I'll be perfect."

But we have it backwards. The truth is, we are FAR from perfect, and we need to cut ourselves some slack, in my opinion. It's OK if we mess up in several areas of our life. We shouldn't get so down on ourselves when we do. I think if we let ourselves be imperfect in other, more acceptable areas of our life (like not studying for 24 straight hours or not getting an A on an exam), then we won't feel the need to use our addiction to prove to ourselves that we are a normal, imperfect person. We'll already know that.

OK, what I just said probably doesn't make any sense. My point is: rejoice in your awesome day, and don't be so hard on yourself when you don't study for as long as you "should" have. Who the heck cares?! You were perfect!"
posted at 10:24:26 on December 8, 2010 by BeClean
"Your perpetual optimism and motivation are a blessing to so many on this site.

Thank you,"
posted at 10:42:17 on December 8, 2010 by paul
Breaks can be good    
"Taking a break every once in a while (even if it's longer than intended) can be good. We all need a break. Addicts aren't very good at having balance. Balance is important in recovery."
posted at 01:42:27 on December 9, 2010 by dstanley

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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006