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By They speak
12/7/2010 6:37:38 PM
So I worked step 3 in the manual and for the first time felt like I actually realized I can do this. Distinguishing between power and choice was monumental for me. Faith appeared to have new demension and certainly seemed less mysterious. Its not easy but simple. One day at a time. You'd think that would've been positive. Not so far. I think Marianne Williamson sums it up pretty well:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
And that seems to be just about where I'm at. A big selfish sissy. Paralyzed by fear. Talents buried for another day. Don't know how much I'll be around. God knows. I love you guys.

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Your light Speak    
"Even in your darkness your light shines! I have seen it, I have witnessed your talents. I know your are great, your presence is liberating and challenging at the same time. PLEASE KEEP BEING AROUND.

I hate that you are struggling. But, I love you and I will pray for you.

HERO"
posted at 18:51:35 on December 7, 2010 by Anonymous
I'm with Hero    
"I hope you'll keep being around. I think you are very helpful and have great things to say.

I love the quote. I've often felt that I need to keep my talents hidden so that others don't feel less. I learned that lesson in Middle School. I got an A on a test that my friends didn't, and when everyone was asking how much people studied I admitted that I didn't. Never again. To this day I struggle with the topic of my intelligence. It's part of my addiction too. It's a way for me to rebel and try to fit in. Being the good, smart girl didn't get me anywhere (or at least from my perspective at the time), so I moved away from that image and ended up going too far.

Hang in there. We'll all get through this struggle if we keep trying. God knows that we don't want to act out. He'll help us if we'll let him."
posted at 00:38:32 on December 8, 2010 by dstanley


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