By stephen99
12/3/2010 12:19:29 AM
I went to the meeting today the first time in a year. I have probably never made it past the first step. last time i told the people i loved how I felt and said i wanted to do better but i just tried to do it by myself and i just went back to my old ways. My wife came with me today surprisingly because yesterday she said that it wasn't our problem it's your problem. Today she found out about some things i did when we were apart for the summer that i told her i didn't do and she started to cry. I felt terrible and miserable. I dislike telling her about everything i lied about. It just seems to hurt her every time more and more but i told myself i was going to be completely honest with her now. I just hope that if i relapse again i can tell her the truth i think she will leave me if i do!! I am on day seven and i am just coasting not really feeling anything uplifting and only a few temptations. I hope i can start to feel the spiritual; growth i desire.
Thanks for all the comments. I read the verse in Romans and it helped tremendously. I am going to forget myself and serve and care for others more then myself. That's how i got out of it on my mission and I hope that will be the path this time. M goal for tomorrow is to do an act and forget myself.
Thanks again for the comments.


"I'm glad you went to a meeting, and I'm glad your wife went as well. It will be good for both of you. Work through the steps. It will help. Congratulations on a week."
posted at 18:26:05 on December 3, 2010 by dstanley

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"In recent years, as I have sung the hymns of the Atonement, it has been with an especially full heart—and also with full voice, when I can continue to sing—lines such as “How great thou art,” “I scarce can take it in,” “To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine,” “I stand all amazed,” and “Oh, it is wonderful!”"

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987