Divine design through people
By they speak
11/15/2010 4:28:39 PM
This happened a week ago and I wrote about it that night.

You never know what impact your having on people by being in holy places (meetings). Today I was drunk, down and dejected. Im now over recognizing and handing out birthday coins for my Monday night SA meeting and I had a job interview yesterday so had to miss. I realized today I should have called and let somebody know in light of my new responsibility that I wasn’t going to be able to make it. So I texted Lane and apologized for not letting anyone know I was going to be absent. I also mentioned that I’m not doing to well. He said “Go to a meeting tonight!!!” I thought “aaahh I can’t because I’m going to this movie screening thing up at Weber and its during meeting and I’m already committed and I woke up at noon so missed the noon one” etc etc. Well, a random thought “hey, AA meetings from what I’ve seen so far are happening at all intervals (I’m on my computer so forgive any speellling erors). So I googled (blessed google) AA meetings in Ogden. BAM! One right when I could attend. I showed up to this random meeting I’ve never been too still drunkish and not expecting to get anything out of it but just following the advice of those I can trust since obviously my brain is totally untrustable.

The last speaker. (John Doe). Well two or three weeks ago at a diffent meeting I’dnever seen him before or since till tonight. And 3 weeks ago he was talking about how though sober for years he’s really struggling. Crying all the time, down etc etc. And how he’s really close to ruining his sobriety. He mentioned kindof in passing that he’s been on these diet pills and how he’s lost like a 100 lbs or something intense like that. Well I’m not one to approach people I don’t know or assume (outwardly) that I know anything about anything. But I felt like I should talk to him about my experience with and my opinion on diet pills. I told him how years ago I was taking Xenadrin or Xantracks or Hydroxy-cut (I did a bunch of um back in the day always with the same results) for about a month and one day while running laps at the ogden athletic club I stoped dead in my tracks (engaged to my hot wife. doing well by most accounts) after three laps and realized all id been thinking about is how I was going to kill myself and different ways to die for like the whole time. Almost unwittingly. Very insidious. And I thought “wait…this isn’t normal. What the ****? Whats different between now and when I wasn’t thinking like this?? pills!” I quit taking them and within a month my thinking normalized. The same scenario has repeated itself much more then once with me. That’s good enough science for me. Anyway, I just told him everyone is different but if it’s not normal for him to think like that and if he can remember not think like that prior to taking the diet pills that I thought they should seriously be investigated as a possible culprit to his excessive depression.

So he tonight he’s talking. He seems almost finished and then he pauses and says something like “one more thing. And you can’t laugh…okay you can laugh its kind of funny.” And he starts talking about how this summer sucked and how he was on these diet pills. But how now though its getting darker (winter) he’s getting lighter. How people kept mentioning to him to get off these diet pills. Then how a few weeks ago, in his own words “this guys shows up. I never see him around (as he looks around)…maybe he was an angle or something. And tells me of his experience.” He got off the pills and has been feeling I could tell just like I always would after getting off um…like walking into the sun light.

My hair a couple a weeks ago was about 12 15 inches long and I just shaved it bald. I saw him at the beginning of the meeting from across the room and gave him the head nod and it was clear he didn’t recognize me. So I don't know if I’m the angle. Who knows. But it had an impact on me. Nothing crazy. Just that no matter who we are or what situation we are in we can help people…and prably half the time don’t know who were really effecting. He doesn’t know the impact he had on my drunken worthlessness. Because I felt like his story already had a strong enough impression on his mind I didn’t want to ruin it by approaching him to say “hey we talked a couple weeks ago” just to satisfy my curiosity about who the angel was…it doesn’t matter. I just left the meeting. Grateful. God lives and works in us.


Awesome... Inspirational    
"TheySpeak, You are just... wow. You mentioned once that we can choose to see miracles every day, or not to see them at all. It brings hope and inspiration to me when I read about the miracles you see in your life and through your experiences.

I hope to one day have your faith and to be an instrument to help others has you have been so many times already.

posted at 17:42:43 on November 15, 2010 by Anonymous
Great Story    
"Thanks for sharing!"
posted at 23:42:44 on November 15, 2010 by dstanley
We just never know when something we say may help someone.    
"Good job!"
posted at 23:53:49 on November 15, 2010 by Anonymous
I wish you could see    
"How amazing you are. You are the miracle!!!!

Love you brother,

posted at 00:24:03 on November 16, 2010 by Anonymous

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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967