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Losing everything
By NatoshaC
10/31/2010 11:23:26 PM
Step 1 - Key Principle — Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.
Always thought i had control, fooled myself only i guess. seeing as everyone but me saw me losing it. Children services stepped in took the only thing in this world that meant anything to me. ive never been thru something like this three wonderful baby girls lifes i was effecting in the wrong manner. i felt like dying like i couldnt go on exspecailly when my six yr old looked at me said mommy i wanna go home and me knowing that she couldnt because of the choices i made stood there and felt less than an inch tall as i replied not tonight baby you have to stay with grandma, been a week since they were gone and you never know what you have until its gone. didnt want to go on at all. never since the day my first daughter was born has it been this lonely shes not there in the morning to roll over say mom and kiss me and love on me i miss my babies i want them back..................


you have to give it away to get it back.

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so sorry    
"I am sorry. I hope your life can change and you can have your girls back again."
posted at 09:51:50 on November 1, 2010 by Anonymous
look to the saviour    
"He changes the blackest of nights into the brigthest of days.... that is why he died. in your pain, look to him, hold on to his love. He can pull you out and transform you and heal you and your girls."
posted at 13:42:29 on November 1, 2010 by Anonymous
Motivation    
"Let your 3 girls help you to be motivated. I know that my 2 boys have provided motivation at times when I couldn't find any otherwise. When I don't care enough about myself I look at my boys and remember that they need me to be sober and healthy."
posted at 00:00:36 on November 2, 2010 by dstanley
the other side    
"I've been in a place where I had lost so much and the relationships in my life were all harmed by my decisions. that was 4 yrs ago now. I went through the ARP program for a year with the strongest determination to beat it. I surrounded myself with everything good that I could and mentally fought. I had 2 slides back early on but I looked at the positive side that I had gotten a little better. By 6 months I was finished and today, I think of those times as a dream but with very real experience that gives me wisdom. I am able to understwne and help others on with big or small problems. I feel forgiven by the Lord and serve faithfully. I find happiness in my service and love for others. I am an instrument for good again and feel loved by everyone around me. The night was dark, but I am in awe at how bright the sun is now. Continue firm in faith and don't let Satan get in your head and tear you down. You can do all things with Gods help!"
posted at 13:07:06 on March 24, 2011 by Anonymous
Losing it all    
"I learned the hard way that I had to lose everything in order to get my life back. I have been right where you are and really wanted to just die!! Sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom in order to save our selves where we CAN be of help to others in our life that really need us. I know it is a hard lesson but now you are at the cross roads of where you will make that choice. You are now in charge of which path you will take. Remember God is right there with you and so are the people in your life who love you."
posted at 12:19:43 on May 21, 2011 by Anonymous


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