By workingonme
8/12/2010 10:17:49 PM
I just finished feeding my baby and it is 11pm. Our baby has been sick for two days and not sleeping unless with me. This means very little sleep for me which flares my anxiety level.

Tonight I yelled at my 14 year old when he was doing something that I had asked him to do. As soon as I realized that my anxiety had gotten the better of me. I took the baby and went for a ride. I bought cheesey bread for myself and then parked the car to eat and read. I was grateful that the baby was sleeping in the backseat.

I really wanted to eat more food and continue eating, but I didn't. I was able to regroup during the two hours that I was away from home.

I am please that I did not buy more food to consume. I realize that the cheesey bread was not a healthy choice for a meal, however I also realize that I did not give in completely to my food addiction. I was able to stop myself.

Pray really is helping me.


Another victory    
"I can tell that you will be a "ministering angel" to those sisters who medicate their pain with food. Some just do it for the pleasure of it. Correct me if I am wrong but I think that food addictions affect sister almost 2 to 1 to brothers. Not just ten minutes ago I found myself sitting down in front of the TV with a large bag of chips. I soon realized that I was eating a handful of chips with one bite. I said out loud, why can't I be satisfied with just one chip at a time? Same thing when we go into a Chinese Buffet or into Golden Coral. There is so much there and I keep going back for a sample of everything. And then there is desert. It then becomes painful to walk. I think that when Alma was counseling his sons and said "Be Sober" it wasn't just wine, it also had to do with gluttony."
posted at 22:08:26 on August 13, 2010 by migail3

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— Russell M. Nelson

General Conference, October 1988