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Day 1
By therenow
8/8/2010 11:28:20 AM
Step 1 - Key Principle — Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.
Today begins my first day of my commitment to stop drinking. I am on step 1. I now must realize I am powerless over alcohol. As the hours pass during the day, my resolve weakens and I begin to rationalize; OK just today I will, then tomorrow I will stop. I have been a member of the Church for 50 years. Some of those years I joined the "corporate life" where my faith was "in the arm of flesh" and I began social drinking. With alcoholism runing through my family and predecessors, I knew that was not an excuse for my alcoholism but, a warning. Which I thought I could ignore because my faith would not allow me to fall victim to alcohol.

Well, here I am. Powerless and humble to the point that I need Heavenly Fathers guidance and the power and forgiveness of the atonement. I cannot do this alone.

Comments:

Therenow,    
"Welcome to the program! I am so glad that you are coming to understand Step One. Along with that powerlessness comes a ray of hope; "If I am indeed an alcoholic, than maybe if I follow the example of other alcoholics who have recovered, I can stay sober too!"
The hardest yet most liberating truth for me in the beginning was that I could NOT get better on my own, I had always been socially inept and realizing I needed to reach out to another person for help terrified me. But that person that I reached out to became my sponsor and walked me through the 12 Steps and somewhere in the first 90 days, the DESIRE to drink was miraculously removed. Heavenly Father saved my life through him and we were as close as brothers until he died 7 years ago. I hope that you find someone with a lot of sobriety who has worked the Steps diligently to walk you through the process so you, too, can experience the miracle. You have to go to quite a few AA meetings to find the right guy. Try to commit to going to 90 meetings in the next 90 days. This is what most of us with long term sobriety did in the beginning. I'll warn you ahead of time, some meetings are going to suck. That's ok. There will be others that are more spiritual than others. Heavenly Father just wants us to make the effort. Listen for someone with long-term sobriety who you can relate to. Go up to him after the meeting and ask him for his phone number. It you dedicate yourself to these small tasks in the next few weeks, you stand a good chance of getting sober. My prayers are with you. Keep us posted on how things are going."
posted at 13:21:29 on August 8, 2010 by Anonymous
Oh..    
"and asking a total stranger for his number is absolutely normal and EXPECTED in AA. I know it sounds weird but that is exactly how we gather our support group. You can do it!!"
posted at 13:25:35 on August 8, 2010 by Anonymous
Way to go!!    
"I was there..........telling myself for many years it was just who I was. Well it took a long time, but it is NOT who I am. I was lucky in the respect that I did not have any negative physical symptoms arise by stopping. I went to intensive outpatient treatment and found it to be worthwhile. Being open to influence and realizing just how small I really am took a lot. My self esteem increases each day, little by little. Today...........I will NOT drink. Reach out to others and build a support network. You are NOT alone!!"
posted at 19:54:42 on August 8, 2010 by nickwyo


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