Fired Up For Recovery
7/12/2010 8:00:31 PM
I have no idea why I feel so good, but I have a strong desire to recover and stay sober from now on. I’m almost embarrassed to come out and say that since I’ve broken my promise to never go back to the addiction at least several hundred times in my life, but it really does feel different this time. If nothing else, I will definitely stay clean for the rest of the day, which is an improvement for me since I've been acting out on a daily basis since March.

I confessed all of my transgressions to my Bishop, my girlfriend and I haven’t done anything inappropriate in three weeks, I haven’t masturbated or looked at pornography in five days, and I’m just feeling good. I sort of forgot how nice it is to document moments like these so I can look back at them later, so I’m going to make a renewed effort to keep a journal/write on this site.

Just by taking a quick glance at the site, I was amused by all the drama between addicts and loved ones, and I got to thinking that some of you must actually feed off of drama. I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing though because it is nice to discuss the effects that addiction has on everyone involved. Either way, I’m just grateful that people still blog here.


Ha ha!    
"It's only a matter of time before you're sucked back into the drama yourself!"
posted at 15:44:07 on July 13, 2010 by Anonymous
Hey Ette!    
"I’m so glad you’re “fired up”. :)

It is nice to look back and see the better times…keep coming back and blogging about your progress. I’ve been wondering how you have been doing. I’ve been reading but not really commenting lately…I’ve been in somewhat of a funk. I’m so tired…and frankly just sick of having problems. –Bad attitude alert!- I’m seeing the doc on Friday to see if my medicine might be the reason why…it’s been really hard to find a good cocktail that works for me. My husband and I saw our marriage counselor today…I guess it went ok…I cried my eyes out; I’m so frustrated with the situation, and my reaction to the situation. Randomly, I feel positive that we are moving in the right direction…our counselor is focusing on me trusting my husband again…I miss that. It’s so weird, I think I could honestly handle if my husband had a relapse (Obviously I hope he doesn’t relapse)…but the dishonesty kills me! Again I am impressed with your honesty…keep going man!! "
posted at 16:22:53 on July 13, 2010 by summer

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