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When Things Are Going Well
By cool hand luke
6/28/2010 11:41:41 PM
why when things seem to be turning my way and even feel like they are going pretty good do i start to feel uneasy?

right now things feel pretty good. i fasted yesterday and got a blessing and have really been running with the spirit of what my wife told me the other day. even now i feel good but can just feel...i don't know...i've never really excepted that i "sabatoge" but thats what i feel like doing. it's just like my brain says "hold on tiger we don't want to have to good a life...let me eff things up for ya."

any widsom concerning, or experience with, this?

Comments:

My understanding from Moses    
"After Moses had a marvelous interview with God (see Moses 1:1-8), "the presence of God withdrew from Moses, that his glory was not upon Moses; and Moses was left unto himself" (v. 9). Just a little while later, "Satan came tempting him saying; Moses, son of man, worship me" (v. 12).

Adam had a similar experience in the garden of Eden when Lucifer invited him to eat the forbidden fruit not long after God commanded him not to. Jesus, himself, was tempted by satan shortly after being with God in the wilderness and fasting for 40 days.

In my experience, this is the pattern of how we all learn and grow. God presents himself to us (through the Missionaries, through a church lesson, through the spirit, or even in person), and he teaches us a lesson. In other words, he gives us light and knowledge, truth, and grace. Then, he withdraws from us, and he lets us prove that we will be true and faithful to the knowledge we have received. While God is gone, satan tempts us to worship him and rebel against God.

In the moment of temptation, we have two choices. We can worship satan by obeying his temptation and rebelling against the knowledge we just received, or we can cast satan out as Moses did, and enjoy the presence of God once more.

If we choose to rebel, we will lose the light we just received from God, and we will remain in darkness until some future time, when God chooses to restore that light to us once more (and give us another chance). Of course, if we continually disobey God and follow satan, we may never get that chance again. Instead, satan will slowly destroy us.

But if we choose to cast satan out and to be loyal to God, he will eventually return to give us additional light and truth. In this manner, we will progress from grace to grace, line upon line, precept upon precept, until we have received a fulness of light and knowledge and literally come back into the presence of God.

Moses showed us the example of what to do when satan comes tempting. He basically said, "Who are you? ... I am a son of God, in the similitude of his Only Begotten; and where is your glory, that I should worship you? I couldn't even look at God, he was so glorious...but I can look at you. ...Get out of here, satan. Don't lie to me. I will worship God alone, and I've got more things to talk to him about. So, get out of here." (see v. 13-18)

If we read on, we see that this made satan really mad, and he didn't immediately leave. Instead, he stomped his feet and yelled, claiming to be the Son of God. Moses had to tell him to leave two more times! Finally, after Moses said, "In the name of the Only Begotten, depart hence, Satan," satan yelled and wailed and weeped and gnashed his teeth and then left. And in v. 24-25, "Moses lifted up his eyes unto heaven, being filled with the Holy Ghost...and calling upon the name of God, he beheld his glory again."

So, apparently, that's how you do it.

Mondays have historically been the hardest day of the week for me. I believe that is the day satan comes tempting me after the Spirit I felt on the Sabbath has withdrawn from me. I attend church, take the sacrament, and feel very spiritually fed and uplifted, and then God withdraws, and satan comes without any glory whatsoever and asks me to worship him. And sometimes, to my utter regret, I give in. How stupid is that? But it's been a while since I've had that problem, because I've learned that if I remember back to the glory of God, and repeatedly tell satan to get lost because I will only worship the God of Glory, eventually satan leaves and the Spirit of God returns with more joy and glory and grace than before.

In my opinion, Luke, it sounds like you are going through this same kind of experience. You just received a message from the God of Glory, and you enjoyed the presence of His Spirit while you fasted and sought a blessing from him. Now it's time to prove yourself, so that you can receive further light. If you are feeling uneasy and tempted to sabotage your life, that is the very real presence of Lucifer, the enemy of your soul. Do everything you can to follow Moses' example. Tell the lord of lies and darkness to get lost and pray to the Lord of Light with all the energy of your soul. Cast out satan and seek the face of God. He will return with more knowledge and then another test.

Keep going, my friend. Your Father is real, and he wants you to pass this test."
posted at 10:48:15 on June 29, 2010 by BeClean
Fear of success maybe?    
"Luke, I might be off base, but I wonder if like me, you deal with a fear of success or lack of feeling worthy of a good life. It used to be really bad for me; not so much anymore. In the past I was always undermining my success. Not just regarding addiction, but in all aspects of my life. The clearest example was as a senior in high school. At the end of the track season I got sick with the stomach flu for a few days. After I was better and had just completed a workout the coach came up to me and told me that I had qualified to go to region. I was excited to go until he told me that if I went to region I would have enough points to letter. I immediately felt a sinking feeling and lied to him that I didn’t feel like I would be recovered from the illness in time. I knew I was lying. I just didn’t feel I was worthy of that kind of recognition. All I had to do was go and run around the track once and I snatched it away from myself. When I was 33 it hit me one day that I wasn’t a complete failure. It was such a revelation that I can tell you exactly where I was at the time the thought came. I had always picked apart every one of my accomplishments so that in my mind it wasn’t anything big or it was even a failure.

The next big step for me was in recovery when I came to realize I wasn’t just a big disappointment to my Heavenly Father. I came to understand that He really loved me despite all my flaws. Later I started praying that I could see myself as He sees me. I am probably not there yet, but I am a lot closer and don’t seem to pull the rug out from under myself just to stop it when things that are going good.

The other thing you made me think of is how (before recovery) I used to feel that a fall was inevitable. That feeling has changed as well. It is nice to be able to commit to living the law of chastity filled with hope and assurance rather than doubt.

Recovery does work. Just don’t give up."
posted at 10:44:56 on July 7, 2010 by justjohn


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