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First blog - not really
By bobhere2112
5/2/2010 4:31:06 PM
I havn't been on this site in years. Obviously, since I am back, I am still struggling. But after years of failled effort, bathing in the deepest, darkest parts of sex addiction, and excommunication, God has guided me and my family to a point where I am finally ready to truely committ.

I am 36, have a wife and three kids and we just celebrated 10 years of marriage. Over a year ago I decided to join the army for several reasons. While going through basic at 35 years old, being separated from loved ones and feeling all alone, I turned to God. This was big for me because I was still recovering from being excommunicated and had a lot of annymosity toward the church and had no belief in God.

I made changes in my life in the hope that there was a God. Scriptures and prayer got me through basic training. Basic and AIT was pivotal in my turn around, but when I came home, the stresses that would lead me to my negative behavior returned. I did ok for a while, but there was no more growth and I wound up in the cycles again.

After much prayer and fasting for the first time in years, I feel ready to committ. I talked to the bishop and my goal in to be rebaptised in 1 year. I plan on spending the year finding God by relying on Him, praying constantly, and learning about Him. I also plan to return to the steps and work on 1 step a month. The last time I tried the steps I was not totally committed to them. My wife is supporting me and we actually plan to write a book together about keeping our marriage alive through all of this. I hope to come to this site often so that going on the internet can become a positive thing, instead of stressfull thing.

Comments:

Awesome    
"Welcome back, Bob--to the site, to the gospel, to the Church, and to life. It's so good to hear you wanting to turn your life around.

Of course, you aren't really any different than the rest of us. We're all at different stages of the same process...whether we are addicts or loved ones. So, welcome to the team as we ALL try to return to God's presence."
posted at 19:02:02 on May 2, 2010 by BeClean
Agreed    
"It's never too late to begin the repentance process, so be welcome! God is the only being that can help us, and desiring to change, even if it's weak at the beggining, will lead us to freedom. May the Lord help us in our efforts."
posted at 23:14:11 on May 2, 2010 by alma-br
Relate to    
"Thanks for sharing your story! Reading it I feel that I am not alone in my struggles and hope that you know that you are not alone either."
posted at 10:16:21 on May 3, 2010 by benjamin


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