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rough day, but no slips
By jhamilton75
12/17/2009 11:42:19 AM
Sometimes I cannot stand the people I work with. I've already blogged about this so I won't belabor the point. But today one of them had some particularly asinine things to say, so we had to go outside and hash it out. By that, I mean talk it out. Not settle it "old school" with fists; even in the Army we don't really do that.

The the point, though, is that this evening I was very tempted to act out w/ pornography. But I didn't. I decided not to. But, I also remembered Step 3, about turning it over to the care of God. So I said a short prayer asking Him for strength and guidance.

I'm finding that it is not enough to just "not use porn". White-knuckling through it is a temporary solution. I have to also do it the right way, which is through prayer and faith. That is the only real long term solution.

In other things, my wife is recovering well from her surgery (hysterectomy) and went home yesterday from the hospital. Even though I'm still here in Iraq, there are plenty of people to help take care of her and the kids. This is especially so from the Church. We are so blessed to be in such a wonderful Church that truly takes care of each other. I'm thankful for all of them.

--J

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Who/what do you love?    
"I know I say it a lot, but when I read your words, J, my heart really does cry out: Hurrah!

Oh, I am so happy you didn't give in! What pain that would have caused for you, your wife (thank goodness she is recovering well), and for us. Well done!

In recent days, when temptation has come, it has helped to think, "Do I really love that more than God?" Of course, I always answer, "No way! I love God more than that!!"

You, too, showed your love to God today. Today, you love Him and your wife more than that filth."
posted at 23:16:07 on December 17, 2009 by BeClean


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