I must keep fighting
By needhelp38
12/12/2009 2:02:28 AM
I can't believe this...but I made the mistake of searching some things on Google just now...on a tab on my browser at the same time I had this site pulled up & I came across some things to read that were definitely highly inappropriate. NOT GOOD! I broke down after the Potiphar's wife incident twice with p~rn, but my struggle since then has been primarily the inappropriate thoughts & healing from the co-dependencey with my ex-boyfriend.

I got a text on my phone just now & I haven't read the text, but just hearing that i have a new text & seeing my scriptures laying next to me snapped me out of reading for those 10 minutes & I knew I had to blog on this site about it...even 15 mins after I posted something else. I knew I had to nip it in the bud, and I am going to read my scriptures now.


You're not alone    
"I want you to know that I just said a prayer for you. Falling is never very fun, but I'm proud of you for coming here and promptly admitting that you're having trouble. We're all in this together, and we have to be willing to take turns helping one another and being helped.

This may or may not help you right now, but I feel like I should share something my therapist told me right after my last relapse. He said, "What do you call relapses? ... They're part of the program." What I gathered from this is that recovery is a process. As time goes by, we will find healing as long as we follow the program, it just might take a little longer than we would like.

I might be blowing all of this way out of proportion, but I have a firm understanding of how destructive inappropriate literature can be. Reading filthy articles and stories has always played an indispensable role in my addiction, which is why I choose to combat my inclination towards degrading literature by reading and writing on this website. Maybe the next time you feel tempted to read bad things you should read the old blogs here instead.

May God bless you for your righteous desires, NEEDHELP. I promise to pray for you often."
posted at 03:34:14 on December 12, 2009 by ETTE
Sounds like you WON this battle    

Mary (I hope you don't mind me still using your name, since you provided it...tell me if I should stop), you did awesome!

Temptations come, and we give in sometimes.

But this time, instead of giving in for 30 minutes, or an hour...instead of doing more things you shouldn't have...instead of waiting days to tell anyone...

You came to this site to report within 15 minutes. That's very good, and it shows recovery progress. I'm excited by that. Well done. Keep up the good work."
posted at 10:03:38 on December 12, 2009 by BeClean
Poor Judgment?    

After reading BECLEAN's post I feel kind of guilty for suggesting you had a relapse. That's definitely not my call to make, that's between you and the Lord. If you feel like you indeed won this battle, then congratulations!

If you consider this a relapse, then don't be discouraged. There's so much hope because you clearly want to recover. Keep it up!"
posted at 10:33:27 on December 12, 2009 by ETTE

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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967