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not doin so good
By ican2
11/16/2009 9:57:12 PM
I have had a tuff day. When I left my house this morning I knew I was going to fall. The thoughts in my mind were fueled by a dream I had and my mind was racing with the thoughts of my past and the many sinful acts I have commited before becoming active again. Every so often the women of my past come into my mind and also those that I may have fantisied about when younger. Saturday I saw a girl that I would fantisy about in the past and this morning with my dream and the thoughts about her and it all came at once and I had not prepared myself spiritualy for the day and I wasnt strong enough and did not have the Spirit with me. Then after that I wanted to escape myself and just leave work and go to a movie or just get out. This brought up thoughts evenmore about my past and it was just a sad cycle all day. I know I can do better. It seems the hardest part of the week is always the Monday and Friday.
It is always so nice to be home. I have a 2 year old son and a 2 month old daughter and they lift me everytime I come home. I see them and it makes me feel disgusted by what I am doing. It will effect them because it effects me, that is why I know it is so important to change my heart in Christ. So goes without saying, I'm feeling a little depressed right now.
Tomorrow is a new day and I will do better.

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Bad Day    
""Tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it." I can't believe a quote from Anne of Green Gables comes to my mind. I hope that makes you smile. It's a true quote, though. Thank our Father in Heaven for deciding that after each rotten day we get a fresh, new one.

Those days that start with suggestive dreams are tough. Just know that Heavenly Father loves you, even now, when you don't love yourself.

End today with prayer and scripture study, even if half-hearted. Begin tomorrow the same way."
posted at 23:06:43 on November 16, 2009 by BeClean
Sorry for you.    
"It's tough when you haven't acted out but you wake up feeling dirty and driven by lust. Been there, felt that. You just have to go for triple protection until the feelings go away. It doesn't seem fair though.

May we all be like Capt. Moroni building up stronger fortifications when it doesn't seem like we need them.

You can make it. Keep on plugging at it."
posted at 00:19:15 on November 17, 2009 by justjohn
Have faith    
"I get sometimes the feeling that I'm going to mess up no matter what I do, like I'm in a downward slope and I'll eventually mess up. I know exactly how you feel. The feeling that you are going to mess up no matter what is a lie told to you and me by satan. We don't have to mess up, and as you keep trying, giving up to God, holding on to the thought of your kids, praying like there's no tomorrow, all of these things will help. The longer you get away from the sin the better it will get. Just keep making the decision to live for God and your family, not for your lustful desires. You might have to make that decision several times a day, that's okay, commit frequently that you'll be clean this day. We can be clean, I have to believe that its possible, with faith in Christ we can do this."
posted at 17:55:32 on November 17, 2009 by adrastos


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