frustrating couple of days, but still clean
By jhamilton75
10/18/2009 12:07:47 PM
So yesterday was a pretty rough day. Due to someone else's stupidity, we didn't get much done on yesterday's mission. Nobody got hurt or anything, it was just mostly a wasted day going outside the FOB.
Today was a slow day. We usually don't have any major work to do on Sundays, so we stayed on the FOB and took care of some various tasks. And, during a meeting with some of the officers and NCO's on my team and another team, I'm reminded of the striking fact that I really can't stand most of the people I work with. Very frustrating to deal with.
But the good thing is that I haven't been even tempted to act out on my porn problem at all. I was tempted to do other things to deal with it, but they're more productive than porn.
I've gotten back into running a lot more lately. Yesterday I did 4 miles and tomrrow morning I'm planning to do 8. It was a little tempting to go running today but I'm really striving to keep the Sabbath holy as much as I can. So I don't run on Sundays.
I'm thankful for this. I'm thankful that I've got over a month straight of being clean. I'm thankful that temptation is much easier to avoid and to resist now.
I'm thankful that, now that I've got a measure of "sobriety", the other problems, trials, and tribulations are easier to manage.
Being clean doesn't make other problems go away. But it really takes the edge off. Along with a steady routine of prayer, scripture study, and church attendance, it makes things so much more manageable.
To everyone out there who's struggling to get clean, I can tell you that it can be done. And it is worth it.

Prayers and best wishes,


Keep it up!    
"It's good to hear that you're doing so well. I envy you that you haven't even been tempted to act out. Your experience gives me hope that the day may come when I won't have any temptations to act out. Even if I could only have one day like that, it would be amazing.

It's been so rewarding to see the progression and change you've gone through since you started blogging here. Thanks for sharing!"
posted at 23:04:40 on October 19, 2009 by ETTE

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