rough day
By jhamilton75
9/21/2009 12:25:39 PM
Had a pretty rough day today.

So I really can't stand most of the guys I work with. It's not the job. I really love the Army. I like waking up at 0500, running 5 miles, doing the mission, wearing the uniform, all that. I'm a soldier and I like being a soldier. Most of the time I like other soldiers as well.

But this group I'm with just isn't a group I'm gelling with. We've been together about 8 months now, with about 7 more to go. About half I can sort of stand, and the other half I simply cannot stand. And there aren't any that I feel particularly fond of. Normally I'd say it's just a matter of personality conflicts, that maybe I rub them the wrong way, too. But I really don't think the problem is me; most of them can't stand each other, either.

I think I'd put in to get transferred elsewhere, but I've got too much of a sense of responsibility for that. See, I'm the team chief; I'm the guy in charge. Even if I don't like these guys I'm still responsible for them and I will not abandon them.

But I've got to find some way to get through the coming months without making myself or others miserable.

I need to read scriptures now, and pray, and maybe do some yoga. All that usually helps. Anything except turning to my addition. Porn, by the way. I've been struggling with it for years. Lately it's been tougher to resist than usual.

Thanks for reading. Any advice, comments, or just a mention in someone's prayers would be appreciated.

Take care, best wishes,


"I'm sorry you're having a hard time over there in Iraq. For what it's worth, I'm really grateful that people like you are willing to leave their families and homes to serve our country. I have a lot of respect for anyone who sacrifices so much.

I can really relate to some of the methods you use to fight your addictions (I also read your previous post). Working out is an enormous stress reliever, and it helps take my mind away from temptations. I consider my time in the gym almost as sacred as my daily scripture study and prayer.

Another idea you can try that's really helped me cope has been getting involved in things I normally wouldn't do, like service opportunities, special interest clubs, CES firesides, ward activities, and so forth. It has also helped me to try to be friendly to people I would normally ignore. Basically, just finding anything that'll keep me busy in my free time.

I wish you the best of luck, and I'll be sure to keep you in my prayers today."
posted at 13:04:51 on September 21, 2009 by ETTE
hang in there    
"I'm greatful for people like you that can leave there families and do what you are doing as well . you just hang in there and we will make sure that we are here to vent and to help us to over come those temp. that cloud are mind and keep us from moving forward. Just remember don't let the evil wolf win we want the good wolf to win. May the lord bless you and keep you safe from harm and Iwill keep you in my prayers as well."
posted at 09:05:14 on September 22, 2009 by newsoul

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"In recent years, as I have sung the hymns of the Atonement, it has been with an especially full heart—and also with full voice, when I can continue to sing—lines such as “How great thou art,” “I scarce can take it in,” “To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine,” “I stand all amazed,” and “Oh, it is wonderful!”"

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