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Alcohol & Me
By radiogirl
9/8/2009 1:23:30 AM
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"I started drinking when I was 9 years old. The alcohol was already a part of my life as my parents put beer in the babies bottles and daddy gave me some concoction he called "Mud KoolAid". I dont' know what he put in the mud koolaid but every time I drank it, I would suddenly find myself waking up in a strange room, strange house, strange bed. By the time I was 9 I knew "Incomprehensible Demoralization" and alcohol was the only out I could find. Then at 14 I found the Church of Jesus of Latter Day Saints. I traded drugs and alcohol for Church....but found that to be short lived. I'm 47 now and have 50 days sober. I don't have much (if any) faith but am willing to test this 12 step thing out - including abstinence. For one year. I've been told that my life will get significantly better within a year. I hope it's true." But I have only seen my life get more and more difficult since the day that my Priesthood Holder decided he was finished w/this breeding horse. That's what he used me for and then he discarded me and took my kids away along with all of the money and houses and cars and even the dog. I have been left flat on my A-- with no hope and no real, substantial sort of support to get to my kids. So, I'm not really sure what the point of sobriety is anymore. I just can't go into faith full throttle at this point.

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Welcome    
"I can testify that, if you let it, the 12 steps WILL change your life. I didn't believe I could change. I had no hope. I had little faith (by the way, the 12 steps will help with that, too, if you let it). I don't know if I really wanted to change when I talked to my Branch president and he started me on the 12 steps, and probably for the first 4 months or so I was like "what is the point". But that changed. If you can do more than hope to gain hope that one day you can change your life, that is a place to start. We all enter into this program broken in one way or another. Don't worry about getting into faith full throttle--that's not the way faith works--just try your best to believe that God loves you, even with your problems, and he will be patient."
posted at 01:14:11 on September 9, 2009 by ican
AA is a lifesaver, too!    
"I can't say enough about the grandfather of all 12 Step programs. Please don't let pride keep you from genuinely trying AA. If you live out of Utah like me, the ARP meetings are once a week and that's just not enough for some of us. Find the meeings that are good. Some are rough, just try different ones until you find a group that you can connect with. Good luck to you!!!!"
posted at 00:11:55 on September 12, 2009 by Anonymous
Ditto    
"I agree with Anonymous. I live in Utah, have never had a problem with alcohol and I have one AA open meeting that I try to get to once a week. It can be really good if you hunt around until you find one you enjoy. I actually found this one trying to do 12th Step work."
posted at 16:11:41 on September 14, 2009 by justjohn
AA & Me    
"I just went through a whole lot of trouble to insert a comment, and it just disappeared by the time I got the log in right and all that mess....@#!But I'm not mad! Anyway as I was saying, my life is indeed changing and I am on day 76. I am grateful to AA and the 12 steps and all of the wonderful people that have come into my life and help me to live a different perspective. Thanks."
posted at 23:09:13 on October 4, 2009 by radiogirl
Congrats    
"Hey I just wanted to congratulate you on 76 days, that's awesome! Keep up the good work. I'm glad to hear that things are going well for you."
posted at 23:02:27 on October 5, 2009 by ican
Right on!    
"Day 77 is when you're supposed to get a sponsor. : )"
posted at 00:24:10 on October 6, 2009 by Anonymous
year and a half    
"Hows it coming radiogirl? How cool would that be to 1 hear from you at all and 2 hear good news? Hope your story is changing and hopefully for the better!"
posted at 20:43:21 on February 9, 2011 by They Speak


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— James E. Faust

General Conference, April 2002