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By jrl034
9/3/2008 12:48:38 PM
I have struggled with alcohol addiction since I was about 16. It provided me an escape from the real world and escape from my flaws. In 2007 things were so bad I would drink everyday, every morning, and not for fun but to get drunk. I used drugs in combination just to feel free. I even drove my love away from me through this. A semester abroad followed by a summer in Utah has helped me to rid myself of this horrible addiction. I was even baptized and found my way, through Heavenly Father's graces, back to my love, who is now my fiance. In fact I am 209 days sober. But now I'm back at school, where the LDS population is so minimal. I am away from my fiance who has always been such a solid rock to me, back with old "friends" who encourage going out and partying. I'm starting to feel lost again on this campus and starting to be tempting back to using some type of outlet in order to "escape" I know this is wrong. I know that with every fiber of my being, but I'm just feeling lost without my rock and it's hard to feel like I don't have many places to turn. Although currently I don't feel I am in immediate danger of buying alcohol or even having a drink, this feeling is something I've felt before. It's hard because I've changed so much since I was away from school but those around me don't see it. I find it hard to concentrate on school work and hard to be in the same places where such bad memories have taken place. I want to feel closer to Heavenly Father and more in tune with the spirit but it's hard when so many people have chosen such an opposite path in life. I konw that this is just a trial, one of many, but it's an especially big one as I am preparing to marry in the temple. I just feel alone here.

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I have faith in you!    
"Love binds us together and keeps us strong, your rock is always with you. Focus on that fact and you will surely prevail. You've clearly done so very well in your struggle, keep up the good work! Don't let the people who can't see your wonderful changes make you sell yourself short. God sees your righteous intent and your steadfast commitment to his gospel, keep it up :) He is the most solid rock you could possibly cling to and you ought to cling to him as well! He is just a prayer away :)"
posted at 21:22:02 on September 3, 2008 by jjh832k1
Alcohol & Me    
"I started drinking when I was 9 years old. The alcohol was already a part of my life as my parents put beer in the babies bottles and daddy gave me some concoction he called "Mud KoolAid". I dont' know what he put in the mud koolaid but every time I drank it, I would suddenly find myself waking up in a strange room, strange house, strange bed. By the time I was 9 I knew "Incomprehensible Demoralization" and alcohol was the only out I could find. Then at 14 I found the Church of Jesus of Latter Day Saints. I traded drugs and alcohol for Church....but found that to be short lived. I'm 47 now and have 50 days sober. I don't have much (if any) faith but am willing to test this 12 step thing out - including abstinence. For one year. I've been told that my life will get significantly better within a year. I hope it's true."
posted at 01:06:55 on September 8, 2009 by radiogirl


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