6/23/2008 10:14:06 AM
Tough weekened, but I got through it and one week sober. No, I don't go to meetings. That's wouldn't be good right now since I'm doing this on my own and I don't wnat anyone to know about it. I figured out why I am so mad and why I have all these addictions. It has to do with being sexually abused when I was younger. I thought I was abused because they loved me. The first time I see that I was no more than an object to them, the workers at the preschool, my dad and others. I feel very violated and used. What a horrible feeling to be USED. There's my anger which led to addiction, right? I can do this now.


Does it have to be tough?    
"Great job on making it through the week, but it concerns me that you are trying to do it on your own. I'm sure you know just how hard it is, but you don't have to do it alone.

I'm truly sorry that you have been abused. It is totally unfair. You do have a right to be angry. You were an innocent being and truly had no choice by someone that is also very sick depriving you of your virtue. My thoughts are with you. The hardest part is that there is nothing you can really do except letting it come out, through writing about it and talking about it to some trusted friend. Hopefully you can trust in Heavenly Father and let your heart out to him. He loves you and understands and feels your pain. He does not want you to do this alone.

The tough part can be turning it over to God, but does it have to be? If you can truly trust him, it will be easy. He wants to take the anger and the pain and give you hope!"
posted at 22:38:51 on June 23, 2008 by surrender2
"You said that it would be easy to turn it over to God? I can't wrap my mind around that one. But I think that's why I'm here, to learn to do that, but I don't know how. I guess that's the hard part is not knowing how to turn it over to God. Thanks for giving me some hope and good advice. I'm going to make it. I just don't know how."
posted at 06:25:41 on June 24, 2008 by TRISTAN

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"Nothing is beyond [Christ’s] redeeming reach or His encircling empathy. Therefore, we should not complain about our own life’s not being a rose garden when we remember who wore the crown of thorns! Having bled at every pore, how red His raiment must have been in Gethsemane, how crimson that cloak! No wonder, when Christ comes in power and glory, that He will come in reminding red attire, signifying not only the winepress of wrath, but also to bring to our remembrance how He suffered for each of us in Gethsemane and on Calvary!"

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987