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GOD LED ME HERE
By TRISTAN
6/17/2008 1:54:06 PM
Step 1 - Key Principle — Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.
God led me here. I prayed yesterday that he would help me get out of the darkness. I know I am to blame. I went to addiction because it felt good and because it hid the pain. I believe in Jesus and that he died for us. I don't know why God let these things happen to me, but I think it was my free will and not his doing. I like God, but I don't know if he likes me. I know he doesn't like the things I've done, but I've got to give him a chance.

You see, I've tried before, but this time I hit bottom without no way out but up. I thought God would extend his hand, but I found out that I had to extend my hand upwards first. I was surprised when he grabbed it. So, I got on Google and put in LDS Addiction and here I am.

Step 1 - being honest. Every thing I have done has been a disaster. I don't know how to get into the light, but I know I have to be honest first. I have a problem. At 16, I wanted love, I needed a dad, I got involved with the wrong crowd. Now I'm trapped in like this bondage thing. Last night I prayed the God would deliver me from Satan. He did. I felt Satan release his grasp on my soul.

I am 16 years old. My mom and dad are dead. I'm trying to make this work for the first time in my life. I can't be a loser like my dad was. I've got to start being honest about myself and what I am. Jesus said that the truth will set you ffree. I want to believe that. - THANK YOU.

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That is what the Atonement is for    
"Tristan
You are right the first step is being honest with yourself. Yes you may have made some mistakes, there isn't anybody on this earth that hasn't made a mistake.
Last general conference Pres. Uchtdorf gave a talk in the priesthood session called A matter of a few degrees. In this talk he stated, Remember, the heavens will not be filled with those who never made mistakes but with those who recognized that they were off course and who corrected their ways to get back in the light of gospel truth.
God does not only like you he loves you more than you will know.
I would suggest to you that you find a bishop or a stake president you can go to and confide in them. They can and will understand where you have been. They will not judge you, they will help you to see how you can bring peace into your heart. Peace can come and does to people like yourself everyday. Again you are off to a good start, be as honest with yourself as you can. Understand we live in a society that teaches us to not take responsibility for our actions. This is why many of us struggle with looking in the mirror, it is much easier to point the fingers at others.
Well know Christ loves you and will always have his hand extended, we are the ones that resist his love and help. Be patient with yourself, and start the process of learning to love yourself as Christ loves you."
posted at 19:24:43 on June 17, 2008 by john
That is what the Atonement is for    
"Tristan
You are right the first step is being honest with yourself. Yes you may have made some mistakes, there isn't anybody on this earth that hasn't made a mistake.
Last general conference Pres. Uchtdorf gave a talk in the priesthood session called A matter of a few degrees. In this talk he stated, Remember, the heavens will not be filled with those who never made mistakes but with those who recognized that they were off course and who corrected their ways to get back in the light of gospel truth.
God does not only like you he loves you more than you will know.
I would suggest to you that you find a bishop or a stake president you can go to and confide in them. They can and will understand where you have been. They will not judge you, they will help you to see how you can bring peace into your heart. Peace can come and does to people like yourself everyday. Again you are off to a good start, be as honest with yourself as you can. Understand we live in a society that teaches us to not take responsibility for our actions. This is why many of us struggle with looking in the mirror, it is much easier to point the fingers at others.
Well know Christ loves you and will always have his hand extended, we are the ones that resist his love and help. Be patient with yourself, and start the process of learning to love yourself as Christ loves you."
posted at 19:26:03 on June 17, 2008 by john
Hi Tristan,    
"What I'm about to tell you isn't something that someone who is not an addict could understand... It's absolutely NOT your fault that you struggle with this disease! It IS however your responsibility to seek out the solution, as set forth in the LDS 12 Step program. "You say I know I am to blame". While I agree with John above that it's not good to point our fingers at others for our problems, by the same token, people with birth defects shouldn't go about asking themselves, "What did I do wrong?". I urge anyone reading this to research and understand the importance of seeing addiction as a disease. The American Medical Assosiation has already done as much. General Authorities speak of "the disease of addiction". It's easy for people who are not addicts to tell themselves that if someone doesn't ever try a drink or drug then they will never become addicts. It's a disease that ALWAYS surfaces sooner or later in some way or another. To people who don't live with this disease, it's PAINFUL. It's the only disease I know of that effects those who have it on a mental, physical, spiritual and emotional level. People die from this disease without the help of a program of recovery.
The problem with blaming the addict is that part of the disease is that the addict already mistakenly thinks they are lower than the lowest and they can sometimes hardly find a reason to go on.

Tristan, at your young age and knowing as little about your circumstances that I do, even though you've made some mistakes-as we all do- this hellish struggle you find yourself in is definitely NOT your fault. You didn't bring this on yourself. IT JUST IS. We don't remember but before we came here we agreed to endure ANY set of circumstances that might materialize. I believe I was shown that addiction was one of the possibilities that I agreed to but I accepted it whole-heartedly because Jesus promised that I would never screw up worse than He had power to redeem me. I just had to seek Him out.

I love your faith, Tristan. Good for you for seeking out God so early in life. This will save you much regret and heart-ache. Have you met any friends in the program, in person yet? I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck."
posted at 11:23:03 on June 18, 2008 by Anonymous


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