By antlers54
5/2/2016 12:03:19 AM
new, not sure if I am even doing the right thing for sure . I am older , so I am ashamed to say that my weakness came at a time when most have grown strong


"Antler, I hope you feel peace and friendship here. I will share a little about myself and that is I thought i was living a good life, a life dedicated to God, but my inability to deal with stress and anger and fear i chose to follow after Satan's enticings. I also when I think about it am ashamed of my choices, but when I think about it and realize that Satan has had thousands of years to develop tools of war against us has made me realize that there is a real battle going on for our souls. not that it excuses my sins or mistkaes or poor choices over my life, but my parents, my community, myself didn't understand the evil wave of p@rn. Now I can see it and am fighting to the best of my ability, and more importantly I am trying to submit myself to God and have him fight my battles for me, because I myself am weak and unable to hold out against Satan.

when I learned from SA that there is a three fold issue with addiction, mental emotional spirtual I felt greatly liberated. I had always thought that I was a morally bad person because I coudn't resist temptation. that I had heard talks talking about signing a hymn, reciting a scripture etc. These are good things, but when I am physically under attack, not getting enough exercise or not eating right then I there is an area where I need the Savior's help.

Also finally I realized after listening to some good talks I was taught that sin for the most part is not because I am bad, it is because there is something broken or hurting in my heart in my soul. That I afraid and scared, just like a child, I am trying to fill the hole in my heart with something, andI don't have the patience or courage or capability to hold on for the Savior.

Again I hope you find peace and healing here. Welcome"
posted at 10:48:18 on May 2, 2016 by sjanderson1
"Welcome Antler!

We are a community of broken, addicted and wounded people who believe in Christ and hope for healing. You'll find we are diverse in age, gender and in problems. The one thing we all have in common is our solution: Christ.

I am a codependent. My husband is a sex addict. We have compatible diseases that made us a perfect storm of dysfunction. Over years (decades) of struggle and failure, we finally gave ARP our best. It is has been transformative and so healing. We aren't perfect, we still struggle but we are so far from the hell we were living in. I am happy. He is happy. We are growing and progressing. Its a beautiful, messy, hard road but welcome to it.

posted at 14:52:25 on May 2, 2016 by maddy

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004