When God has forgotten you
By They_Speak
9/11/2015 11:56:51 PM
I feel like I've never needed God more and he's nowhere in sight. I feel like he's left me here to trudge through this experience alone. To learn for myself. The stakes are so high. Or they feel high and he's nowhere to help me understand what I should do. How can he leave things in the eternal balance to trial and error? On two occasions I heard the voice of the Lord say "all this will make sense to you". Here I am two years later as clueless as ever. When I was excommunicated I heard "all this will be but a small moment" and it's been four years. All these revelations and for what? Now the revelation well runs dry and still I want. O God, where art thou...


I am so sad to hear you are struggling    
I am so sad to hear of your challenges. Is there anything specific you wish to talk about? I know for me sometime that can b e double edged sword. Talking can elp me get it out, but also it helps me focus on what is wrong. I wish there was something wish or profound I could offer or say. I am reminded of what Elder Eyering said about comforting or something like that when his dad was in teh hospital with cancer. President Kimball came by and visited, the current Elder Eyering said now I will learn what to say or how to comfort people when things are hard. President Kimball just sat with Elder Eyering never said a word and then left. The Elder of the Eyerings said that it ment so much to have President Kimball come visit because he was so busy,even though he didn't say anything. I wish I could just sit with you and hear what you are dealing with, support you and give you a shoulder. Unfortunately you ar e stuck with me trying to muddle through a post trying to explain how I want to be supportive and hepful to you. I hope your sharing has helped you free your soul a little.
i am going through something right now with my job, not sure if I am going to be employed at the end of teh month and scared to know what to do next. i Know it is not the same, but when you ask God where are you, I think I can relate a little bit. My heart does go out to you. I wish there was more I could do or say. Finallly though I remember when Elijah went into the wildernes God should him the wind, the earthquake and something else, but God was never in those power things, but when he came in the still small voice he was stronger than in those things that shook the Earth. I know that seems quant or trite, I know for me it is hard to say or believe what I just wrote, but i have hope that it might be true. I want there to be a God, I want to believe that God knows who we are, that he knows you, he know me and exactly what we need right when we neeed it. like Elder Holland said in his talk help though my unbelief what we know trumps what we don't know.....
Please forgive me for prattling on, I hope this has been helpful. I am sorry that I have made it more about me than what you are facing. I hope this has been helpful in some way, for you to know that you are not alone. what you are facing may be called something different, have a little different aspects but I Imagine that what you and are both going through is more similar than it is different, that we are facing the same demons and that our Savior is the one that has overcome them for us."
posted at 02:28:55 on September 12, 2015 by sjanderson1
I haven't read all    
"... You're response but that's one of my favorite Erying stories. Thanks mann. Well played. I'll read the rest later"
posted at 03:38:34 on September 12, 2015 by They_speak
I don't know    
I will not even try to pretend that I've got a clue what God's plan is. I know that He is real. I know that He has a plan and He loves us. I know that He is good. That's all I have.

I do know that your journey has been a blessing to mine. I do know that I am selfishly grateful for your hard bought perspective. Maybe there is something to that fact that our pain can be someone else's guiding light. I often think about that when I read the ARP manual, about the suffering that gave the authors the ability to write about the passage through addiction and then have it turned into a blessing to me.

Please know that I am cheering for you and you are my brother.

posted at 15:33:11 on September 14, 2015 by maddy
You can do it!    

Prayers sent up for you. Glad to hear you keep on trying."
posted at 20:53:15 on September 17, 2015 by Anonymous
It's the Opposite    
"God doesn't leave us, we leave God. He is always there with his arms out stretched, always there to listen, always there to support. If we feel abandoned, it is because we abandoned Him."
posted at 09:49:10 on September 19, 2015 by Anonymous
How are you now?    
"I would be curious to know how you are doing?

posted at 02:06:54 on September 25, 2015 by sjanderson1
What are you doing for recovery?    
posted at 10:32:33 on October 19, 2015 by Anonymous

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"You lived with your Heavenly Father in a premortal life. You were there with Him. Your spirit knows what it is like to live in celestial realms. You can never be truly happy in an uncelestial environment. You know too much. That is one of the reasons that for you, wickedness never can be happiness. What a great thing it is to decide once and for all early in life what you will do and what you will not do with regards to honesty, modesty, chastity, the Word of Wisdom, and temple marriage. "

— Larry W. Gibbons

General Conference October 2006