Minor setback - Huge victory
By SeminaryKid
1/3/2015 10:43:15 AM
My friends!
Today is a challenging day for me. I have very recently slipped up after two weeks of sobriety, and it is not a good feeling. However, upon falling, I immediately started listening to gospel music and reading your blogs. The most important difference it has made for me is that right now, i don't feel like a huge failure. In the past, when this would happen, I would begin to hate myself and give up on the idea of success and overcoming the natural man. I would fall into a relapse and get very depressed and hopeless. Every time.
I know that today, this very inure, God is with me. Even though I have fallen, He is still there, and He still loves me. He has been carrying me these past few weeks, and I guess today I tried to walk. The beautiful thing is, I don't have to. I can just stay in His arms forever. I will not allow this moment to destroy me or my success. I feel more empowered than ever. Obviously I wouldn't want this to happen again, but I will not allow myself to stay down. The most powerful change that I have been able to see in myself the past few weeks is that I KNOW not that God loves me. He loves me so much. And that has not been damaged.
God will always love me. God will ALWAYS love you. Do not ever let your setbacks destroy yourself. There is something beautiful about Day 1. I know it is hard, but Day 0 is so much harder. I thank God for being with me in this hard time, and I thank all of you for listening. I love all of you. I know that together, and with Christ, we will all be heroes and winners in the end. The waves and winds still know his voice who ruled them while he dwelt below.
I thank my God for being by my side and holding me and loving me despite my slip. I will get right back up. And that will make all the difference. This is a momentum game, and I haven't lost any. Thank you, Lord. I love all of you. I pray for you.


"Relapses are part of recovery. Sometimes it is how we learn. When we are being the stupid super addict we either sweep it under the table or we obsess over our guilt. Both of these are equally bad for us. Take a good look at what you need to learn and LEARN it and soldier on.

Your head is in the right place. I am not worried about you. I am just proud of you for showing the attitude you do.

I love the flat tire analogy with relapses. If your car gets a flat tire on a road trip, do you try to keep driving and break your car more? Or do you sit on the side of the road forever and cry about it? Nope. You CHANGE the broken tire and get back in the car and keep going. Jesus provides the spare tires and He has an endless supply of them. Drive on."
posted at 15:14:43 on January 3, 2015 by maddy
You're right    
"I have always chosen to look at setbacks and relapses as opportunities to learn. In this case, I did. I was able to examine and understand the thoughts and actions that lead up to the slip, and now I can prepare more. I don't mean to brush it under the rug, I made a specific point of asking for forgiveness and that the Lord would help me learn from it. I just have been loving the peace and love that I have been feeling recently, and I was not going to let this weakness take it away. God is always there. "
posted at 18:08:55 on January 3, 2015 by SeminaryKid

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"You lived with your Heavenly Father in a premortal life. You were there with Him. Your spirit knows what it is like to live in celestial realms. You can never be truly happy in an uncelestial environment. You know too much. That is one of the reasons that for you, wickedness never can be happiness. What a great thing it is to decide once and for all early in life what you will do and what you will not do with regards to honesty, modesty, chastity, the Word of Wisdom, and temple marriage. "

— Larry W. Gibbons

General Conference October 2006