An Open Letter to Everyone on
By SeminaryKid
12/31/2014 3:56:40 PM
My friends,
It means a lot to me that you take the time to reply to me every week. Seriously. I know you're very busy, and you're time is very valuable. It means the world to me. Because I really genuinely benefit from what you have to say. It also shows that you are a fighter, the fact that you are here, reading this post, replying to others. You have proven to God and to yourself that you are ready and you want to change. I hope I can be as much help to you as you have been to me.
Because I am a recovering addict to pornography and masturbation, I have been struggling with self worth issues for years, and now I am starting to feel like I can really start to move forward. I am trying to feel Christ more directly and personally in my life. It helps a lot. Your words and prayers are making all the difference.
I can also feel the influence of the devil more directly, now that I am making a direct and conscious decision to resist temptation. It is a very powerful struggle every day, but every time that I resist, I feel myself getting stronger in order to resist next time too. I know that that was a direct design by our Father in heaven. When we obey him, we are given strength and power.
I have been working with my bishop on a few different things recently, and I feel like the words he has given me have really helped me to get a running start in this fight. I told him about some certain sins in my past, such as premarital sex, and he said that because of my change of heart, I could forget about the sorrow I had been carrying for so long. If I turned to Christ, he would take away my guilt. And I can truly feel that in my life. I have been having a much better time letting go of the things that have haunted me for so long. I know that this is truly a tender mercy of the lord, which will make it so much better for me when I go forward for the rest of my life.
Something that really damages our spirits as children of god is that we don't even need satan to belittle us. Most of us do it ourselves most of the time. But when we can finally break free of that chain, once we realize that God will always love us and that we can always come back from the dark places in our hearts, we become unstoppable. I am no longer allowing my past, my sins, to control my emotions and my spirit. I am going to give that control to my Lord.
I can not describe enough the blessing that I experienced this last semester while I was a part of a gospel-oriented community choir run by young saints. My testimony of the love, the grace, and the sacrifice of our savior grew tenfold. I know for a fact that performing that fireside based on Redemption again and again every weekend was a life-changing factor for me. I was led to that opportunity not only to bring the truth of the atonement to others, but mostly to grow my own testimony through the spirit. I can not wait to feel that spirit again this next semester. I can not overstate the power of music in this or any battle that we may experience during our time on this earth. Listening to the right music, at the right time, can mean the difference between success and love, and bitterness and grief.

“We get nearer to the Lord through music than perhaps through any other thing except prayer.”
-- President J. Reuben Clark Jr.

“Inspiring music may fill the soul with heavenly thoughts, move one to righteous action, or speak peace to the soul.”
-- President Ezra Taft Benson

These quotes from prophets of God promise us that if we are ever feeling tempted to sin, or if we are ever feeling that we are not close to our Heavenly Father, or have spiritual or emotional unrest, Music will do more than anything else, except prayer, to settle our hearts. I am so grateful for this beautiful and remarkable gift from God.
I know that I will overcome this trial. I know that I will become so much stronger because of it, through the Lord. I know that all of you will also overcome, and we will all be a massive, unbelievable force for good and testimony in this beautiful world. I know that the Lord is holding his hands out to me, and once I finally accept Him, I will be unstoppable. I'm well on my way.
Right now, my goal is to be ordained to the melchizedek priesthood. I really want to be a part of my sisters' baby blessings. After that, I am not sure when, but I hope to rebaptize someone in my family. I want to be worthy to serve God, and to serve those I love through Him.
The hardest part, for me so far, is not resisting the temptation to sin. That is coming along. The real hard part is getting back into the swing of living as a saint, and a son of god. The truth is, I have kind of strayed from that way of life over the past 18 months or so. I am sure you have seen this to some degree in your own lives, in anyone who has felt it necessary to stray from God at any time. People who are still in the church, they just have a hard time living the way they should because they have been off track for so long. I am by no means justifying me behavior, I just know that it might take a little while. I am trying though. I try to remember to pray and whatnot. I know it will come. it might come slowly, and a little at a time, but I know it will come, because God is on my side, and He wants me to succeed.
I love you, brothers and sisters. I know you are doing amazing things. I am so proud of you. I can't wait to join your ranks and to serve the Lord and those around me. I wish you the very best. May the Holy Spirit be with you. I love you so much. Have a happy new year!
I thank you so much for all your words of comfort and guidance. They have meant so much for me. They have literally changed my life. I am infinitely grateful. I am doing my best to be like you.
Be safe, remember that Jesus Christ was born and he he died for YOU. He loves you, as do I.


Seminary Kid    
"You are so cool."
posted at 23:53:19 on December 31, 2014 by maddy
The Power of Community    
"Thanks, Seminary Kid. I, too am so thankful for a solid community that has helped me out many times in the past. Thank you for all your efforts and that you for that post. I was tempted last night, and I pulled up your post and it all went away. Thanks! With Christ on your side, you are sure to overcome your addiction!"
posted at 08:52:09 on January 2, 2015 by intothewest
"I don't think I've ever responded to any of your posts, but I'm grateful to have read this one. It really helped me today."
posted at 14:32:57 on January 2, 2015 by Created
Thank you    
"i can't begin to describe how helpful I find this board. Every time I come here I find encouragement to maintain my sobriety for another 24 hours. Ultimately, it is the grace of the atonement, that will help me overcome my addictions, but I know for a fact as I humble myself and ask for help to overcome temptations that the Spirit leads me back to this message board, as well as ARP meetings, chats with my bishop, etc.

I come to this board to find strength to keep my sobriety and it has never let me down. God bless you all."
posted at 08:10:04 on January 3, 2015 by DANO42
"Music is indeed powerful. I've found that it helps me to resist the temptation to view pornography. Thank you for your message. It is inspiring."
posted at 01:57:01 on October 5, 2015 by PlumedAgate

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"Are you battling a demon of addiction—tobacco or drugs, or the pernicious contemporary plague of ography? Whatever other steps you may need to take to resolve these concerns, come first to the gospel of Jesus Christ. Trust in heaven’s promises. In that regard Alma's testimony is my testimony: "I do know," he says, "that whosoever shall put their trust in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions."

— Jeffrey R. Holland

General Conference, April 2006