what can I say, what can I write
By skyteamst90
7/17/2014 12:59:53 AM
Hello there.
It's been a while since I posted something here. probably many moons, probably a couple years. I made sum friends here and it seems a few of them are still here, so some may also remember me.

I took a leave of this place because I was overwhelmed with the stories I read and my own story. I was angry that some people left, didnt come back, and who knows what happened to them. I was angry that some had success and making it; overcame mb/p. Angry that I am powerless. Angry that good things didn't happen for me. Angry that I don't have the support I need. Angry that I couldn't have the spirit or spiritual experiences.

I was ex'd in 2005 and hv been now rebaptised (Sept/2013) and this has all been an interesting experience for me. I do feel that my story is unique in a few ways, but way common in others.

I plan to come back to this site and post some more. Not totally sure whay I will say, but I'm sure it will come to me. I have to rethink my recovery plan, and start anew, and this site maybe part of it.



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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006