Day 63
By torrenca
7/14/2014 10:30:02 PM
Just checking in still alive and kicking. Still in a good place. Should be working on step 6 but haven't started it yet. I'm feeling a little lucky that no major hiccup has happened so far.

Over the 4th of July weekend the family and I went to a water park. I felt a little uncomfortable being around all of that skin and tried to keep a clean mind but man that's a hard situation to be in. Even though I wasn't in a lustful state of mind I felt that I was doing something wrong. All that was running through my head was pervert.... I don't know what to do with what I was feeling. Maybe next time I will feel differently. I know one thing thank goodness we only go to water parks 1 to 2 times a year.

Spiritually, I have been going to church and now they want me to start working in the young men program again. I just want to tell them to give me some time to get my life back in a little order again before I start with calling like that am I wrong to feel like this. I have never said no to a calling before but I think that I am going to this time. I am just getting into a good routine and I don't want to screw it up.

The wife... Things on this end are still going better than expected. I still am in a little aw of how my wife is handling this situation and I find myself wanting to help her more because of what she does for me. so when she pisses me off I try to return the kindness and let her imperfections go and to not hold a grudge.

that's about all for now.


"So happy for you! We are all cheering for you!"
posted at 23:18:27 on July 14, 2014 by 1stepatatime
"What a wonderful report. Sounds awesome!

As far as the calling is concerned, don't underestimate the benefits of what a chance to serve can do for you. I accepted a calling once that I thought was going to significantly disrupt a lot of my personal goals, and later noticed how the calling actually helped SO many thing come together in my favor, and in a way I never would have guessed. It was amazing. Don't make the decision on your own though... definitely pray about it, and if necessary, share your concerns with your Bishop, and let him act in his role as a Judge in Israel."
posted at 10:13:30 on July 15, 2014 by rmww
Very good    
"It's good that you are going 63 days clean. That said, why in the world would you subject yourself to a water park? There is nothing but porn walking around every where you go. Porn addicts, IF they want to recover, must give up things that they did in the past. An alcoholic doesn't go into a bar to have a soda with his friends. A porn addict doesn't go to any place where temptation would be rampant. You are only paving the way for you to fall again."
posted at 21:22:28 on July 17, 2014 by Anonymous

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