Feeling a little in limbo
By torrenca
6/16/2014 8:58:47 PM
I'm on day 35 I am finding myself not knowing where to go from here. I am feeling comfortable. I am not letting my addiction run my life but I know I need to keep working the steps but I find myself not wanting to. I have always resisted getting to churchie it doesn't feel right to me I have always had the desire to stay right on the edge of good and bad. I know it would be best for me to get off the edge but I don't know if I want to. I still pray most nights with my wife and try to touch base with my sponsor at least once a day. I have been going to church every week since I started except for stake conference. I still don't feel comfortable there but I know in time I will. I still find myself not wanting to participate in everything at church because I don't know if I should. My Bishop hasn't told me not to participate but i'm not sure if i'm ready for everything yet. I think its time to schedule another appointment with the bishop and talk to him about it but who knows.

Things are going well with my wife. I like talking to her now. We talk for at least 15min before we go to sleep this helps a lot. Now we know what each other is doing and what is on our minds. I find myself wanting to be closer to her and knowing what is going on in her life when we are apart.

I guess that's about it for this time


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"My brethren who are caught in this addiction or troubled by this temptation, there is a way. Don’t accommodate any degree of temptation. Prevent sin and avoid having to deal with its inevitable destruction. So, turn it off! Look away! Avoid it at all costs. Direct your thoughts in wholesome paths. Please heed these warnings. Let us all improve our personal behavior and redouble our efforts to protect our loved ones and our environment from the onslaught of ography that threatens our spirituality, our marriages, and our children. "

— Dallin H. Oaks

General Conference, April 2005