Day 28
By torrenca
6/9/2014 10:23:12 PM
I was on vacation all last week. I went camping with my family. Things are getting better with my wife and family. We had a 6 hr road trip with all 5 kids and it actually went well. My wife is slowly starting to return the efforts that I have been putting into are marriage. I can feel and see the love returning. Choosing her to be first in my life is starting to pay off. The empty feeling the whole in my heart that I was filling with porn and masterbation is being filled with the love of my wife and savior.

I didn't think I would ever be the type of person to turn myself over to our savior and lean on him for help and support. I am so much happier now. I love my wife and kids. I can't believe that it was only a month ago that I had decided to give up on my wife and family. I am so glad that I found this site and read those blogs that helped me to realize that I wasn't alone and there was hope for me. I am still working on step 4 didn't get a chance to work on it last week. Does everyone stall on step 4 or is it just me?


"Step 4 is rough stuff. It is SOOOOOOOO good to have it behind you. Right up until you cycle around your steps and do it again. I think the first time is the hardest though. Writing is was really therapeutic for me, but sharing it was terrifying. I shared it with a therapist.

Torrenca - seriously, I just loved reading this post. You rock man! Recovery has some hard parts but the good parts are sooooooooo amazing. For those of us that have tasted the bitter, the sweet is so much more sweet.

Just because I like typing the word "sooooooooooooooooo" sooooooooooo much I am going to do it one more time...

oooops, I just did."
posted at 22:29:54 on June 11, 2014 by maddy

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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967