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This thing actually exists.
By g1rlie
1/25/2014 7:10:49 PM
Okay, so I am racking up SA White Book sobriety. Been struggling with half measures, however, if staying out of contact with this certain man that I am addicted to. But, thankfully, I've not acted out with him in over 1.5 years. Yay.

I've realized what the problem is...why I've struggled with this half measure that avails me nothing. It's been difficult for me to resolve within myself some issues. I haven't had the skills to resolve these things. So, I've been stressing out because every time this drug of mine tells me he wants to see me, I totally freak out and my body has a completely adverse reaction. Yet, I haven't been able to entirely give him up.

But, some things have been stirring in my imagination all of this time....

So....I read about a government-sponsored mind control program called MK Ultra, where the government programmed people's minds for sometimes nefarious purposes. Mind control experimentation. So, I figured if mind control can be used for nefarious purposes, maybe it can also be used for good purposes.

Then, I read in a psychology magazine somewhere that there was a way of reprogramming soldiers minds so they forget the trauma they experienced in battle. But the problem was that if they haven't resolved within themselves the issues, these issues would manifest themselves later on in inappropriate ways.

So, I felt like I needed some sort of good mind control device that would help me resolve the issues. So I can get over the trauma and not repeat my mistakes over and over. .

I guess such a machine exists. Is been helping me and I've only used it once. EMDR. Been seeing a CSAT who has had me do this machine thing.

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"Develop discipline of self so that, more and more, you do not have to decide and redecide what you will do when you are confronted with the same temptation time and time again. You need only to decide some things once. How great a blessing it is to be free of agonizing over and over again regarding a temptation. "

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