Some Recovery Actions
By R_Matt
9/7/2013 12:32:34 AM
Sober for 39 days but I know i'm still not well. Something in me is seeking anything sexual. Reflecting on people and events through the day. trying to find that crack in my program for acting out. I know that Prayer and Specifically prayer connected to the Temple has created the protection I need. protected long enough to get to this Blog and also turn on Mormon Radio.

After a social event today temptation hit hard and I was in that part of town where temptation could be fed. Ended up at a hobby store talking to a white haired retired man about the innocent hobby the store hosted. Although the things we talked about seem frivolous, the temptation went away and I felt strengthened for hours afterward. Thank you White haired retired man at the Hobby store!


You are reaching out on this blog    
"That says that you want something better.

Have you listened to KLOVE Christian music? I find this music speaks to the addicted soul. I love it, and my husband loves it too. Google it, and give it a try.

You will overcome this. Temptation is part of life. It gives us a choice and it sounds like you are being blessed for pointing your heart heavenward. I also hope you will be kind to yourself and make a personal promise to keep moving forward no matter what.

Are you married? If so is your wife seeking recovery for herself? I cannot express enough how important it is for her to do her own recovery work. Her focus needs to be on her relationship with the Lord and not on your addiction. Doing my own work has taught me that the Miracle is not necessarily in the sobriety of my husband or children because life happens sometimes, but the miracle is in me and how I can praise God in the storm and find him in the most unlikely places.

My husband and I have been working the recovery steps for 3 1/2 years and our relationship is better than it has ever been. He does his work, I do mine. Placing the Savior in the middle of our marriage is everything. I know that he strive for progress and not perfection, knowing that the Lord is perfecting both of through this process. He told me that he use to look for the quantum leap to sobriety, but he is finding that it is the little things done on a daily basis that are connecting him with the right people and placing him in the right places. It sounds like that is what happened to you in the form of a white haired man.

I pray for all of the addicted and their loved ones both at home and in the Temple. I know many others on this site are praying for you as well. Take comfort in knowing that you are not alone. When we join forces with our Father in Heaven and his Son Jesus Christ, we can do hard things."
posted at 01:50:51 on September 7, 2013 by angelmom
Wise Words    
"Thanks, I hear the Wisdom is what you are both saying. Important things I can really use to improve this situation. Specifically, a Christ centered home for both my spouse and me and kicking the compulsions and temptations through priesthood power."
posted at 09:40:45 on September 7, 2013 by R_Matt
Jesus Christ    
"I just thought I should mention him, since Kick It never did."
posted at 14:27:37 on September 7, 2013 by Anonymous
Keep going    
"Nice work buddy - I am over 1.5 years of sober now and I still know I'm not well. I am always just a few dumb decisions from messing up. Decisions have gotten more clear and easier to deal with, but I still have temptations and still have character and personal flaws and problems to deal with that come naturally from an addict's lifestyle. Recovery is a lifelong commitment to a new way of life with God - it takes a while to commit to and a daily effort to maintain. Good luck to both of us as we seek it."
posted at 11:16:20 on September 13, 2013 by recovery.gdo

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004