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90 Day Challenge: Day 1
By johnroberts
8/2/2013 1:11:06 PM
I'm writing a 90 day challenge simply because that seemed to give me enough direction before to abstain. I made it over 100 days -- somewhere around 110, actually -- before lapsing again.

It's been less than two weeks since my most recent lapse, but since I didn't keep track of what day that was, I'll just start today.

I think the most frustrating thing about this whole p/m problem I have is that I don't feel worthy of being happy until I've had at least a month of sobriety. Of course, that leads to depression and self-esteem issues, making it easier to give into another lapse.

Last night, I was on the phone with a friend who recently returned from a mission. "What was one of the most important things you learned?" I asked.

"I learned that Heavenly Father wants us to be happy, and he's sad when we're sad," my friend replied.

That struck me. I suppose my natural worldview is that life is suffering punctuated by short periods of happiness or pleasure. The suffering brings us growth and progression, the ultimate point of this life. I see happiness or even basic enjoyment of life as something reserved for long in my future, well past my death.

Anyway, I've been doing some research today. I'm still not fully convinced life is supposed to be "happy" as most people define it, but I think of the brethren, and they seem to preach a gospel of happiness.

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004