By wantfreedom
7/16/2013 11:29:16 PM
Well today was a roller coaster of emotions. I was all over the place. It was really hard on the wife seeing me happy then extremely sad then happy and back and forth. I am so happy that she is loving and supporting. As I was feeling my worst I have felt in a long time she suggested that we pray together(which honestly we do not do very often) and after we prayed we read 1 Nephi 11. She wants to understand why I act the way I do and why I choose to continue in my addiction but I am glad she doesnt. It was raining really hard here today which always makes me reflect on God and His creations. So today I did relapse. I knew I couldnt be alone so I was with my brother all day today but within five minutes of him going to get us lunch I messed up. I guess not being alone or at least having a task on hand helps me. Something to take note of for tomorrow. I still really struggle with prayer. So today was more of a journal entry. But I got my first video from that nine month program. Cant wait to watch it real quick before I go to sleep. Keep moving my brothers and sisters. One Step at a time.


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"If it were possible to make your road very easy, you wouldn’t grow in strength. If you were always forgiven for every mistake without effort on your part, you would never receive the blessings of repentance. If everything were done for you, you wouldn’t learn how to work, or gain self-confidence, or acquire the power to change. "

— Richard G. Scott

General Conference May 1990