By wantfreedom
7/16/2013 11:29:16 PM
Well today was a roller coaster of emotions. I was all over the place. It was really hard on the wife seeing me happy then extremely sad then happy and back and forth. I am so happy that she is loving and supporting. As I was feeling my worst I have felt in a long time she suggested that we pray together(which honestly we do not do very often) and after we prayed we read 1 Nephi 11. She wants to understand why I act the way I do and why I choose to continue in my addiction but I am glad she doesnt. It was raining really hard here today which always makes me reflect on God and His creations. So today I did relapse. I knew I couldnt be alone so I was with my brother all day today but within five minutes of him going to get us lunch I messed up. I guess not being alone or at least having a task on hand helps me. Something to take note of for tomorrow. I still really struggle with prayer. So today was more of a journal entry. But I got my first video from that nine month program. Cant wait to watch it real quick before I go to sleep. Keep moving my brothers and sisters. One Step at a time.


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