Fighting the Daily Battles
By rmatt
6/25/2013 11:10:51 AM
Fighting the small daily battles will help me win the war with unwanted same-sex attraction. This past Sunday was the first time in years that I actually felt the spirit and found a glimmer of hope that I can reconcile unwanted desires with the principles of the gospel. But I realize that those feelings are a reprieve and that I must go back to the war especially since I woke up the next morning after having a dream involving Leonardo DiCaprio. Lets leave it at that. I don't even like Leonardo DiCaprio in any form at all. Temptation is everywhere and Lucifer is relentless. For me, like many others with addictions, it starts small and grows. I don't wake up in the morning and say, "I need to look at (gay) prn and mb." No, the adversary is much more subtle than that. My aim is to recognize that and resist. Case in point, I saw this link recently:

"Drool Alert: Shirtless Henry Cavill Shows Off ‘Man of Steel’ Training Video"

For a regular guy, you would not think twice. But with my situation, this is a pathway to disaster. I will look at a topless pic (despite the fact that I have seen the movie and seen Superman with his shirt off) but then it leads to more, and then more pics of other guys. Then I am watching moving pictures and then simulated sex than BAM! I have lost the battle. It really sucks that I have to deal with but I guess this is the cross that I must bear all my life.

Elder Richard G. Scott once counseled a guy with SSA saying that it may never go away but the most important thing is that I don't give in or give up.


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"Are you battling a demon of addiction—tobacco or drugs, or the pernicious contemporary plague of ography? Whatever other steps you may need to take to resolve these concerns, come first to the gospel of Jesus Christ. Trust in heaven’s promises. In that regard Alma's testimony is my testimony: "I do know," he says, "that whosoever shall put their trust in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions."

— Jeffrey R. Holland

General Conference, April 2006