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Addicted or just bored?
By stayingclean
5/20/2013 11:29:12 AM
Before I went on my mission and for about a year after, I was addicted to prn/mb. I could not get enough of it and I would plan out my entire day around it. I did it with impunity every moment and every opportunity I could get.

After a 11 year "hiatus" I started up again. This time I would binge for a day (sometimes two) but it would happen every 2-4 months. Compared to what I was like before, it is a huge difference and I see many are in the same situation: casual bingers. Still it is a problem and should be corrected.

Studies show a strong correlation between ADHD (which I have) and addiction. The other day I was thinking, maybe I started up again two years ago because I was BORED and now it has become an easy "go to" activity. A couple of years ago my professional career took a slight dip and I became disengaged. Still it is no excuse but I am aware of the possible correlation and do everything I can to be aware of my mental/emotional state, and that such vulnerability leads to "acting out." I am in the process of changing my career and I am now re-engaged. I have no desire to go back to porn. 99% of my days now is me thinking: "WHAT WAS I THINKING?"

Anyone in a simiiar situation? Any thoughts?

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Addiction    
"Addiction is something you can't seem to stop even when you don't want to do it. When you return again and again habitually....that is addiction. Addiction is something you can't stop on your own."
posted at 20:43:38 on May 20, 2013 by maddy
Addiction    
"I guess the use of "or" is misleading. I do believe that I am an addict. I also believe that I have an addiction. There are some out there like myself who only binge every few months while others can't go a day without it. Clearly there is a differentiation. If an addiction is something you can't stop on your own, why is that someone can stop looking at porn for months on end on their own? Without speaking to anyone about it or seeking professional help or joining a group."
posted at 20:50:15 on May 20, 2013 by stayingclean


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