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By Draffon
4/7/2013 2:16:35 AM
Well here is the short version for now since I am new to this. I a 27, a disabled Army veteran of the Iraq war. Seven years in the Army with the 82nd Ariborne Division. And I am a porn addict unfortunately. I am divorced (a deployment will do that.) I have had this addiction since I was a freshman in high school.
This is new and nerve racking for me to be honest. Sharing my addiction issue with the world in a sense is not exactly easy but I will tell it as I can.

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Veteran    
"I am a veteran as well. Welcome. I will share with you what my sponsor shared withme. Recovrty will happen if you will it to happen. And the measure we give is the measure we receive in recovery.

There are other veterans here, as well. Hope things are going okay for you."
posted at 06:32:47 on April 7, 2013 by g1rlie
Welcome    
"Welcome. Thank you for the service you gave this country. Thank you with all my heart.

I am a spouse of a veteran and he is also a pornography addict. He also carried this with him from the time he was very young.

Let me say that this addiction loves darkness and secrets. Simply by saying it out loud casts light on it. It cannot grow in the light. That doesn't mean run around telling everyone right away, but the 12 steps will help you learn when and how to open up more and more.

This addiction can be so racking, but it can also bring you passionately close to your Savior. Admitting where you are is stepping on the road to Him and we will all cheer you on for that!!! Again, welcome!"
posted at 21:50:53 on April 7, 2013 by Maddy
Nuts    
"Oh believe me I still think I was nuts for doing so. My body hasn't forgiven me for doing it. I am 70% disabled and going to school. Unfortunately, porn has been an escape, release, whatever you want to call it as a way to get away from the scars and pain of war and the physical pain. It feels impossible but I will not let it beat me. I have many good things to fight for."
posted at 22:19:30 on April 8, 2013 by Draffon
Pain and submission    
"Draffon,

You absolutely described the truth. Pornography addiction has nothing to do with sex. It has nothing to do with pornography, strangely enough. It is about pain.

When we hurt, especially when we deeply hurt, we seek escape and a release. Even for a moment, we'll trade our sorrows for a make-believe world that isn't so bad. The cycle is that the addiction leaves us in worse pain than we were to start with! And so we have to seek an escape that much more intensely.

I would like to say something about time, if you don't mind. Please, please remember that we need to submit the timing our recovery to the Lord. We have to submit to Him in all of this. We have to be willing to give Him our pain. He is the only one that can take it away. But we also need to submit to Him that it will take the time of His choosing and not ours. He may choose to heal you quickly. For some He does. Or He may ask you to endure. It does not mean He does not love you. It just means He has called you to a different journey. Please do not create an expectation of how long recovery may take. "Expectation is the enemy to happiness." Submit. Submit this and all the rest and just trust Him.

As a soldier's wife, I know a little, very little, of what you might be going through. My heart hurts for you. I've seen a few things, and well, we'll leave it at that. But it has been enough to show me that the scars of war on the mind and body are more terrible than I can talk about. I am so sorry. But when I consider that...my very next thought is that our Savior suffered all that and more, for all of us. And it fills me with wonder.

Remember that not all the suffering in Gethsemane was for sin. It was for our sorrows and our pain as well. I know he has suffered deeply for me on both regards. I am so grateful.

You said, "I feels impossible but I will not let it beat me." I loved that. Just remember that you are not the one who fights this fight. Step back, let the Savior fight it for you. We don't have to beat this thing. We just have to hand over the reigns to God. Christ already beat it for us.

Again, welcome to our 'house'."
posted at 22:51:55 on April 8, 2013 by maddy
Pain    
"I have discovered a lot of things about the human mind since I started my Psychology course. PTSD is a fairly new injury dating back to the Vietnam War. I myself having this have tried to find many ways to make the pain stop at times. This ranges from video games to porn unfortunately. Many a relationship has failed as a result and I feel strongly it is time to stop this horror."
posted at 13:00:53 on April 10, 2013 by Draffon


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