i am triggering!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
By marie sober
3/11/2013 11:59:30 AM
I hate this when this happens when my addiction takes over and wants to rule over me....oh my. this is so hard...I'm still sober barely!!!!!! BUT I kind of want to give in so I can relieve myself from this fight of addiction....:(


stop fighting    
"Pray. Call your sponsor. And come to the meeting tonight. Let them (God, Sponsor, group) take it from you. I know the rush you're probably struggling with right now. I would fail otherwise if I was in your shoes.

I'm not struggling with lust right now but I did wake up in the middle of a really awesome sex night mare and it's been depressing me almost as if it was real. I need to surrender my depression and desire to be lazy and avoid the world because of it. Lust is usually at the door if I get lazy/bored. So, I feel ya"
posted at 14:19:40 on March 11, 2013 by they_speak
"Ya, thank you sweetie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm head to a mtg tonight. I already went today (noon mtg) and feel a little better but not totally. My relapses are nightmares..I just can't even though at this moment I really don't care which is NOT good. I have to care. I go full on when I relapse:( I'm struggling with lust. I love your 2nd paragraph"realy awesome sex " then end it with" nightmare" That is so the truth when acting out. It's awesome but after effects is HELL. Depression is a killer:( sorry. I get depress also. I have a few sponsors-maybe I will text them all right now. I feel I bug them cuz I'm daily triggering....this sucks."
posted at 15:32:07 on March 11, 2013 by marie sober
Same here.    
"But this will pass......."
posted at 17:34:14 on March 11, 2013 by g1rlie
Same here.    
"But this will pass......."
posted at 17:36:19 on March 11, 2013 by g1rlie
"hey, the wise one who follows the spirit AND INSPIRES OTHERS! You sober still?? I'm SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm at day 28 sober. holy freak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;)
@G1RLIE your totally right. I woke up and feel fine. Who knows how long this will last but right now the fight with addiction is gone and I'm feeling pretty good and just want to get basic duties I have to get done today. Yae! I'm so glad I got through yesterday and woke up sober. It took 2 meetings. Texting people from meetings. And Prayer!"
posted at 10:47:27 on March 12, 2013 by marie sober
posted at 10:49:26 on March 12, 2013 by marie sober

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004