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My Day 1
By Robert_326
3/10/2013 9:00:15 PM
Today will be exactly one entire day since the last time I viewed pornography or masturbated. It has been REALLY tough. My addiction to pornography and masturbation has plagued me for nearly half my life. I have tried countless times to stop and be sober, but have also failed countless times. The longest I've ever been "sober is a little over ten weeks. Because of my sexual addiction, I have had my membership keys suspended. In essence, I cannot offer prayers, partake of the sacrament, or participate in classes. I have also lost the power to exercise the Holy Melchizedek Priesthood. Have have spent countless hundreds of dollars in my addiction and in the process have developed a food addiction. I have lied to my parents and have even stolen money from them. I have confessed to my branch president concerning my many relapses, and must again speak with him, that I might shed some light on recent events. Because of my addiction, I have missed about 4 weeks of college, and my grades have severely plummeted.

I am ready to make a change in my life. I am ready to allow the redeeming light of Jesus Christ shine brightly in my life again. I feel like such a hypocrite because my friends and leaders in Church put me in such high regards, saying that I am the nicest, happiest person I know. I love serving others; it makes me feel good. My dad told me something that I thought was really interesting; he said, "You love to fix everyone except yourself." I have always put others before myself. Although I know I have A TON of work to do before I can say that the Atonement of Jesus Christ has completely healed me, I know that He can and will heal me, if I but serve Him with all my heart, might, mind, and strength. I will do my best to not let my Heavenly Father down again. Wish me luck!

Comments:

Grrrrrr    
"I hate pornography. I HATE IT!!!!! I abhor it!!!! It has ruined my life. It has kept me in the chicken coup rather than soaring with the eagles. :( It has just about beaten me to nothing. I hate it. I really hate it. I know that you, ROBERT 326 know exactly what I'm talking about. And you know what? I believe you ARE indeed a wonderful person. A person so kind, so willing to help someone in need. Thanks for that. Really. I wish you the best in your WAR. Your on the front lines it sounds like. Maybe the Lord puts His best warriors in the "toughest battles"... who knows. In any case.... please know your not alone. I'm out here too....in the same war and on the same front line. I'll watch your back and you can watch mine. And there are many others on here who know what your talking about. I'm in day 13 of sobriety... The way I feel today, I'll never touch the stuff again.... but.... I know the routine, and I am watching that cycle ever so closely.

I hate pornography. I hate it. I like saying that. :) It reminds me of all the bad that has come of it and helps me stay committed to wanting to make my life happier.

I HATE PORNOGRAPHY......SO THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
posted at 23:11:59 on March 10, 2013 by itstime
Tell Me About It...    
"I hate it too, but I am often comforted by the thought that my Heavenly Father wouldn't give me something that He knew I couldn't overcome. He gives His strongest battles to His strongest soldiers, and although I don't feel like that sometimes, it kind of makes sense. I am literally fighting a war against myself, against my carnal desires, and slowly learning to submit my will to the will of God, even the greatest of all. I wish you the best of luck and I will be here if you need me. Good luck soldier ;)"
posted at 16:02:00 on March 11, 2013 by Robert_326
Day 2 for you?    
"Hello fellow soldier warrior of the latter days. :) Grrrrrrrr I'm a mean warrior I am!!! Day 14 for me and going strong..... I'm slicing devils right and left. Oh, I stop for some spiritual nourishment here and there.....got to.... but back to the battle I go, refreshed and ANGRY that these devils have destroyed so much. But I have learned a lot too....

Day 2 for you right? Carry on soldier! "Though your sins be as scarlet they shall be white as snow..." THATS a promise from the Lord and we KNOW He keeps HIS promises.

Take care! :)"
posted at 23:40:02 on March 11, 2013 by itstime
Day 61 for me    
"Good Job remember this day. My soberity date January 11th 2013. Keep track of days and make goals continually"
posted at 15:16:17 on March 12, 2013 by Liberation
Hmmm. heres a tbought you probably wont like.    
"Ill start in order.

To main post: Its good to recognize the consequences of your actions. All of those bad things can definitely be rooted back to your addiction to pornography and realizing that cis an important step in reversing the rot. Great post. Something I can personally relate to is where you said your dad said, you are good at fixing everything but yourself. I'm the same way. I've been trying to get a bunch of people into the church again and all this but I fail to realize how much work I need on myself. I guess its a form of procrastination, keeping myself busy.

To Itstime "grrr": I think its good that you hate it lol. I hate it too. I hope you dont take this wrong. One thing you should do, or could do, is take responsibility for your own actions. 100% responsibility. So what I mean is, when you say "[pornography] has ruined my life" you make it sound like pornography did something to you personally. But I think if you take responsibility for this it gives you a certain advantage. "I ruined my own life. I used pornography to ruin my own life and I have a list of bad things that have happened because of the actions the I have taken." If you start to think in this way, where you take 100% responsibility it allows you to really stop blaming other things and say, its up to me to change."
posted at 01:37:15 on March 14, 2013 by mint
@ ITSTIME and Robert 326-I actually love porn so that what makes me addicted!;)    
"My natural way loves it and of course cuz it stimulating and feels good. I hate myself though when I'm weak and not obey Lord commands. :( I make the choice to look at it and I have made the choice now for almost 31 days of NOT looking at it. Yae! I will tell you one thing I know @MINT also-that me being a good example and living how God wants me to live is the best help I can give others!!! Example is the best influence out there...especially hearing others from similuar situation as me and overcoming addiction and doing right"
posted at 22:05:42 on March 15, 2013 by marie sober


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