Taking my power back
By Smallnsimple
12/2/2012 9:56:35 PM
I feel I have lost so much of my identity to my addiction. I used to be so focused and not allow my weakness to keep me down very long. Part of that was denial and putting off recovery to work towards other achievements. As I have entered recovery I have become almost afraid to live because pornography is every where. I have become obese and not made much progress towards recovery. I want to be strong and unyielding in my progress but I have such little self esteem and find myself in revolving negative patterns.

The turning my will over to god and admitting I am helpless is a tough concept for me. I become helpless in every aspect of life almost trying to show how helpless I am. I want the fighting spirit back. I want to choose faith and The Lord. I want to feel empowered in my fight. I have read all the steps but honestly I am still at step one.


That's what kills us    
"Focusing on ourselves. I know, I have been there. What heals us is focusing on others. Service really does heal us."
posted at 22:49:57 on December 2, 2012 by Anonymous

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"Each one who resolves to climb that steep road to recovery must gird up for the fight of a lifetime. But a lifetime is a prize well worth the price. This challenge uniquely involves the will, and the will can prevail. Healing doesn’t come after the first dose of any medicine. So the prescription must be followed firmly, bearing in mind that it often takes as long to recover as it did to become ill. But if made consistently and persistently, correct choices can cure. "

— Russell M. Nelson

General Conference, October 1988