Taking my power back
By Smallnsimple
12/2/2012 9:56:35 PM
I feel I have lost so much of my identity to my addiction. I used to be so focused and not allow my weakness to keep me down very long. Part of that was denial and putting off recovery to work towards other achievements. As I have entered recovery I have become almost afraid to live because pornography is every where. I have become obese and not made much progress towards recovery. I want to be strong and unyielding in my progress but I have such little self esteem and find myself in revolving negative patterns.

The turning my will over to god and admitting I am helpless is a tough concept for me. I become helpless in every aspect of life almost trying to show how helpless I am. I want the fighting spirit back. I want to choose faith and The Lord. I want to feel empowered in my fight. I have read all the steps but honestly I am still at step one.


That's what kills us    
"Focusing on ourselves. I know, I have been there. What heals us is focusing on others. Service really does heal us."
posted at 22:49:57 on December 2, 2012 by Anonymous

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004