Taking my power back
By Smallnsimple
12/2/2012 9:56:35 PM
I feel I have lost so much of my identity to my addiction. I used to be so focused and not allow my weakness to keep me down very long. Part of that was denial and putting off recovery to work towards other achievements. As I have entered recovery I have become almost afraid to live because pornography is every where. I have become obese and not made much progress towards recovery. I want to be strong and unyielding in my progress but I have such little self esteem and find myself in revolving negative patterns.

The turning my will over to god and admitting I am helpless is a tough concept for me. I become helpless in every aspect of life almost trying to show how helpless I am. I want the fighting spirit back. I want to choose faith and The Lord. I want to feel empowered in my fight. I have read all the steps but honestly I am still at step one.


That's what kills us    
"Focusing on ourselves. I know, I have been there. What heals us is focusing on others. Service really does heal us."
posted at 22:49:57 on December 2, 2012 by Anonymous

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"Nothing is beyond [Christ’s] redeeming reach or His encircling empathy. Therefore, we should not complain about our own life’s not being a rose garden when we remember who wore the crown of thorns! Having bled at every pore, how red His raiment must have been in Gethsemane, how crimson that cloak! No wonder, when Christ comes in power and glory, that He will come in reminding red attire, signifying not only the winepress of wrath, but also to bring to our remembrance how He suffered for each of us in Gethsemane and on Calvary!"

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987