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i slipped + became angry again
By skyteamst90
11/23/2012 8:42:24 PM
uh oh the green monster reared its ugly head. i have slipped back + have become angry. i am going to get back on track. honestly i do hate being human + having emotion. theres only a few things that make me happy. most are in my dreams and imagination. i hate most of all being mental + having depression. its the worst to deal with. i feel like a stupid bug to a flame too...i read ppls stories here + wonder if i will be ever be okay (i dont know if i will be healed enuff or good enuff to be rebaptised)...most likely not. i'll have addiction + depression the rest of my life. men are that they dont have joy. its a punchline, at least to me.
so i really hope i can keep it together

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Had enough pain yet? Once upon a time, I th hought life was about the pursuit of happy-ness.    
"Once upon a time, I thought life was about the pursuit of happy-ness. But, I want sure if anyone, let alone I, could actually obtain happiness. Constantly, I isolated and was miserable--trapped in my chains of addiction. It was like this for years. But this is no way to live as we cannot escape ourselves.

Remember the light at the end of the tunnel is not a freight train. There is a way out. Maybe you can't see the way right now, but others have gone that way before. Why not immerse yourself in an addiction recovery program? It has worked for others who have worked the program. It can work for you, also.

As we change, we are able to change our lives. We even think more clearly. We are no longer slaves to our addictions."
posted at 05:48:25 on November 24, 2012 by Anonymous
Had enough pain yet? Once upon a time, I th hought life was about the pursuit of happy-ness.    
"Once upon a time, I thought life was about the pursuit of happy-ness. But, I want sure if anyone, let alone I, could actually obtain happiness. Constantly, I isolated and was miserable--trapped in my chains of addiction. It was like this for years. But this is no way to live as we cannot escape ourselves.

Remember the light at the end of the tunnel is not a freight train. There is a way out. Maybe you can't see the way right now, but others have gone that way before. Why not immerse yourself in an addiction recovery program? It has worked for others who have worked the program. It can work for you, also.

As we change, we are able to change our lives. We even think more clearly. We are no longer slaves to our addictions."
posted at 05:48:48 on November 24, 2012 by Anonymous
Prayers sent up    
"Not everything is lost."
posted at 12:21:28 on November 24, 2012 by G1rlie
Warren,    
"Yes, try the AA meeting dude. Having a fellowship to lean on makes all the difference in the world and when you get down to it, it doesn't really matter if the object of your addiction is different. I disagree with you on one point. It actually does help sitting in a room with other addicts if there are other addicts who have personally found their way out and can help you to do the same. I totally understand you not wanting to go back to that LDS meeting, though. From what you described that sounded uncomfortable as all hell. Try the AA meeting. You don't even need to tell people what you are struggling with. The solution is the same-working the 12 Steps PROPERLY. That is-with another person who has worked the steps already and been granted a good stretch of time clean and sober. Good luck, my friend!"
posted at 12:52:43 on November 24, 2012 by Anonymous
well i will try an aa meeting again    
"i will try a meeting again. theres one at the VA. i feel comfortable there."
posted at 14:33:49 on November 24, 2012 by skyteamst90
thanks for being nice to me    
"thanks for being nice to me"
posted at 14:34:32 on November 24, 2012 by skyteamst90
You're broken like the rest of us. And you are loved.    
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posted at 15:16:24 on November 24, 2012 by Anonymous


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