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Dying...
By g1rlie
9/9/2012 12:58:34 PM
So, apparently part of me must die so I can really live. The part of me that must die is my addict. My addict hates me and will try to kill me spiritually.

I was just thinking about these things because sometimes I feel like I will die if I don't act out, or if I don't hear Greg's voice again, or if I don't see him again. But, you know what? I'm slowly starting to be okay with being without him. Now that I see who he is, I realize it's such a wonderful thing for me to be all of the way out of the situation I was in with him.

Except, apparently I left a door open....

Email.

I've changed my email address so many times, but he can still contact me by email because Sometimes I am weak and I've told him that I'm mad at him or that I miss him or something. And last week he asked me if I want to, um, "act out" with him. And, I do want to do this. But I told him I'm not going to. It just triggered me so much and I've been feeling sometimes like I will die if I don't act out with him again. Then I come to my senses and I realize Greg is one creepy scary dude. And my feelings for him are fading rather nicely.

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know thyself...    
"not sure if you are doing therapy. A big part of that is learning to understand your rituals before you act out.

sometime are rituals include saying no over and over again until we are like zombies and just act out.

good luck"
posted at 13:15:39 on September 9, 2012 by Anonymous


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"By emulating the Master, who endured temptations but “gave no heed unto them,” we, too, can live in a world filled with temptations “such as [are] common to man”. Of course Jesus noticed the tremendous temptations that came to him, but He did not process and reprocess them. Instead, He rejected them promptly. If we entertain temptations, soon they begin entertaining us! Turning these unwanted lodgers away at the doorstep of the mind is one way of giving “no heed.” Besides, these would-be lodgers are actually barbarians who, if admitted, can be evicted only with great trauma."

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