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By john5
9/2/2012 6:24:33 PM
Hi. I'm John. I'm 16 and I've been using this site for about a year, but I just now decided to join after reading a blog by CHRISWRIGHT. He is taking on the very same addiction I struggle with, and by humbling himself and joining early, he was told by loving supporters things that help that took me years of trial and error to find out for myself. I hope that I can make progress like that by doing this.

I'm addicted to masturbation. I've been working with my father and my bishop on this for almost 4 years, and progress has been slow. When I first started I couldn't go a day without acting out once or twice; now it happens around once or twice a week. Stress is definitely a trigger. I've used sports, scouts and church to try to keep myself out of scenarios that end in me acting out, but I've never been able to go more than 13 days.

I really need your prayers right now. I was ordained a priest by my bishop, and he seemed optimistic about me quitting soon. I was to, but...here we are. I can't do this alone. My bishop seems to have offered me everything he can to help me with this, as has my dad. the only thing I haven't done yet is go to a 12-step meeting, but I'm going to try this first, because of my tight schedule between school and sports...you would think that someone this busy wouldn't be able to find time to fuel something so terrible and selfish. Thanks to all of you. I've listened silently to many of your struggles, defeats and triumphs, and they have given my hope each time I have failed. I love each and every one of you and I hope we can all beat our individual addictions by helping eachother.

Comments:

You CAN be free!    
"Welcome! You are not alone! MANY Others struggle with the same problems as you do.

Work the 12 steps. You cannot overcome alone. You are on the right track by working with your father and your Bishop, you also need the Lord. Stay open and honest about this with those who are there to help you, and with us. You will overcome!

Some people overcome quicker than others. Never get discouraged with how long it takes. Just keep going, and you will overcome!

Welcome! We love you, and we will pray for you."
posted at 20:47:39 on September 2, 2012 by beclean
thanks and good luck!    
"man, its awesome for you to join us! even though im still not very far into being an actual member of the site, i have a strong testimony that this site can drastically influence your life. ill try to comment on your blogs as much as i can with help and advice. one last thing, thanks for making me sound like a humility superhero XD"
posted at 20:59:44 on September 2, 2012 by chiswright
I admire your courage...    
"Thanks for coming forward and I'm glad to hear that our shares have strengthened you. :-) I know it seems impossible but meetings really are important. It's a sign of humility to prioritize your recovery - and even though it is a sacrifice - you will be GREATLY blessed. In meetings you will find others who can support you, text you, encourage you, and you will feel the sweet Spirit guide you and heal you. It's amazing:-) But even if you decide not to attend meetings, I'm super glad you are here:-)"
posted at 21:10:23 on September 2, 2012 by siouxsie
Thanks so much for the support!    
"I'm so glad I made this decision! I hope it is one that will continue to help me put things into perspective in my addiction. thank you all for your help and knowledge! and Chris? your bravery inspired my actions, so you are a hero! if I were you I would re-read the comments posted on your first blog. there is lot's of very valuable (and probably hard-earned) knowledge in every single one of those comments...I'll probably be reading them a lot to. I'll be sure to comment on yours to so we can both push past this."
posted at 23:38:09 on September 2, 2012 by john5
Hello John! and chris    
"Most hate my comments, so don't be too discouraged when you see anybody calling me crazy. Im here to help you guys by giving you a different perspective, but I believe in what I say.

So I'm a priest too, and I used to struggle with masturbation only. I started when I was 12 and battled it until I was 16. That's when I took a nosedive in my spiritual life and got into pornography. Trust me when I tell you, it can get worse. You may feel terrible now about masturbation, but you can go much worse paths.

Why am I saying this? Biggest reason: Don't beat yourselves up too much. That's all I ask, because I was so hard on myself I was depressed about being unworthy. But all of the bishops know most young men struggle with this. Your not weird, your not gross. But dont kill yourself with guilt.

Good luck bros, lets get ready for our missions with good spirits, I that's the path you choose."
posted at 19:50:54 on September 5, 2012 by moronidenovo
12 Steps    
"BeClean already said it, but I will emphasize it again. Work those 12 Steps! That is how to apply the Atonement to any problem. Working the 12 Steps is the way millions of alcoholics and addicts have recovered and led successful lives. When the Church was coming up with their own manual they debated coming up with their own program, but the overwhelming success of the 12 Steps compared to anything else swayed them to go with it. Going through the Church's recovery manual (love it) and answering all the questions isn't the same as working the Steps, they are designed to help you do the Steps.

You can do this. The Atonement is infinite! Your Heavenly Father's love and patience are infinite! If they weren't He would have toasted me a long time ago. Next week a number of us from one of the meetings I attend will be going to the mission farewell of one of our brothers. You can get there too!

Love,
Just John
Heavenly Father's Favorite (we all are)"
posted at 16:10:34 on September 8, 2012 by justjohn


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