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Update on my recovery and darkness
By mike81
8/26/2012 11:33:23 AM
Hello my dear friends,
I wanted to give you an update on my situation,

I had a very difficult july month, a lot of doubt and wanted to just give up but each time I Wanted to do that something in me refused to do it, I had some internal fight with me, I had couple strong sleep where I Spent hours on porn website.

Of course behind it was some issue I had to make a choice for my future job and I did not paid attention until it was deep inside me.

At the end I just tried just to break my cycle contacted some great support people to guide me and although it was one of the most difficult time of my recovery I learned some great things

I had to make some adjustment in my programs as well in the way I run my life.

I feel a bit better today, I was able to connect in a more honest way the last couple of weeks and I feel again hope and clean time, I reached
1 months clean but not because I did not act out but because I choose to do connect with people instead acting out

I'm still having some fear but I'm starting to learn to surrender and to become humble.
I was ashamed and guilty but I learn also to surrender and to share my weakness.

Darkness does not last forever and I hope the better is to come.

I wish you all the best in your recovery

Your friend from europe

Comments:

Good to hear from you    
"Thanks for the update! The best lesson from our slips is learning how to get up again and it seems you did that very well this time. Keep it up!"
posted at 21:53:19 on August 26, 2012 by siouxsie
Way to go Mike....    
"Just keep moving forward, and doing the small things each day that take you closer to the Lord."
posted at 09:43:24 on August 27, 2012 by chefdalet
Favorite    
"Mike - your posts are always some of my favorite to read even if I dont comment....because you are so aware and honest."
posted at 12:48:40 on August 29, 2012 by maddy
thank you    
"Hello everyone,

Thank you for your comments and advise, I'm trying to learn, it is not easy especially because I'm a strong perfectionist

I try to be honest now because I made some many life during my all life."
posted at 12:03:28 on August 30, 2012 by mike81


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