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Affair Recovery--Going to my first meeting today Eek!
By Girlie
7/8/2012 2:22:44 PM
Nervous!

I found a 12-step meeting. I'm choosing to go to SLAA because I'm addicted to sex (but with my lover), and I feel like I'm in love with my lover, so maybe SLAA is the way to go.

Wow. I'm nervous. Oh, I hope this works!

The fact that I feel that I am so in love with this man is probably the biggest barrier I have to overcoming my addiction. It's so ridiculous because I feel like I'm in love with him, but I'm well aware that he is just using me. It's really a dumb situation to be in. Another big barrier is that I absolutely LOVE having sex with my lover. Can't get enough. It feels like some sort of perfect drug or something. And when I'm not having sex with him, I quite often think about having sex with him. It's really nonsensical. And this is a huge problem since I am a married woman.

I really can't stand living like this. It's really painful. And I have no peace because I am not in harmony with how I'm living my life.

Anyways, I feel this is a step in a good direction--attending this 12-step meeting. I've also been working on my 12-step recovery manual. Somehow, I think my participation in a 12-step program will help me find a way to allow God to save me from myself.

There is hope!

Don't be afraid of tomorrow, for God is already there....

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Good Luck    
":)"
posted at 17:16:07 on July 8, 2012 by moronidenovo


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