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Affair Recovery--Going to my first meeting today Eek!
By Girlie
7/8/2012 2:22:44 PM
Nervous!

I found a 12-step meeting. I'm choosing to go to SLAA because I'm addicted to sex (but with my lover), and I feel like I'm in love with my lover, so maybe SLAA is the way to go.

Wow. I'm nervous. Oh, I hope this works!

The fact that I feel that I am so in love with this man is probably the biggest barrier I have to overcoming my addiction. It's so ridiculous because I feel like I'm in love with him, but I'm well aware that he is just using me. It's really a dumb situation to be in. Another big barrier is that I absolutely LOVE having sex with my lover. Can't get enough. It feels like some sort of perfect drug or something. And when I'm not having sex with him, I quite often think about having sex with him. It's really nonsensical. And this is a huge problem since I am a married woman.

I really can't stand living like this. It's really painful. And I have no peace because I am not in harmony with how I'm living my life.

Anyways, I feel this is a step in a good direction--attending this 12-step meeting. I've also been working on my 12-step recovery manual. Somehow, I think my participation in a 12-step program will help me find a way to allow God to save me from myself.

There is hope!

Don't be afraid of tomorrow, for God is already there....

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Good Luck    
":)"
posted at 17:16:07 on July 8, 2012 by moronidenovo


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"Lucifer will do all in his power to keep you captive. You are familiar with his strategy. He whispers: “No one will ever know.” “Just one more time.” “You can’t change; you have tried before and failed.” “It’s too late; you’ve gone too far.” Don’t let him discourage you. When you take the path that climbs, that harder path of the Savior, there are rewards along the way. When you do something right, when you resist temptation, when you meet a goal, you will feel very good about it. It is a very different kind of feeling than you have when you violate commandments—an altogether different feeling. It brings a measure of peace and comfort and provides encouragement to press on. "

— Richard G. Scott

General Conference May 1990