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Day 17
By They_Speak
7/4/2012 1:13:40 AM
Things have been tough the last 48 hours or so. Sometimes it's mind blowing how long a few hours can seem. Sunday evening I felt like things were going pretty well as I shared at meeting. I surrendered my resentment toward my addictions and weakness that afternoon and noticed latter that the compulsion and obsession left me for the remainder of the day. Then it hit with a vengeance that night. I think it was that I was up to late. Late nights don't help when it comes to obsessive compulsive behavior for me. I felt like a lunatic. Anyway, I didn't uncork the champagne or look at porn but I fantasized/lusted a lot. I'm going to talk to my sponsor about possibly reseting my sobriety date.

Tonight was decent. Felt a little better after the meeting. It was good to hear that I'm not alone. That others struggle with the constant nagging of a bottomless pit.

Comments:

You're on the path, Brother!    
"You know the H.A.L.T. thing, right? They say don't let yourself get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired. Those things lead to a weakened state.

Keep up the good work, theyspeak! You REALLY deserve recovery!"
posted at 10:26:53 on July 4, 2012 by Anonymous


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