My Week
By anon16
6/30/2012 6:20:41 PM
This week I was at girls camp, I was one of the youth leaders. I shared a tent with a girl in my ward and we spent the whole week pretty much talking about our Bishop.
She is good friends with him and his family(I'm not) and I got a very different perception of him as a result.

I don't feel worthy. I'm on day 47, but I spent the whole week talking dirty and making fun of my bishop. He has an expressive face, so we made fun of his expressions and we also discussed what would make him yell at me(swearing at him or propositioning his son)and the fact that he's a hypocrite. Lots more, but that's the basic.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with my bishop. I feel like a lowlife, honestly. I was supposed to be a good example and I was completely the opposite. I dragged her down. During the spiritual night and testimony meetings, I kept feeling like I was not worthy to be there. I couldnt get up and go, otherwise I would have.

After this week, I think I really hate myself. Ugh.


What motivated you though?    
"If you're like me I'd imagine you acted the way you did in part to fit in? You're a kid. It's normal. You're human. It's normal. There's nothing wrong with wanting people to like you. Don't feel bad. Just learn. I'm takes a life time :)

Me and God still think you're cool :)"
posted at 09:50:36 on July 1, 2012 by They_Speak
"It was part that, part was I like letting that side of me out. Normally I keep my addict/lust side very well hidden and seperate but it has been getting harder to do that. Appreciate your comment though, it helped give me a different perspective on it."
posted at 22:11:00 on July 8, 2012 by anon16

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