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By jja1234
6/26/2012 2:01:06 AM
I've fallen back into my own trap. I've been doing so good lately. Reading scriptures every night, saying prayers at least 1 time a day if not more. And always listening to some sort of uplifting music.

Now here I sit.... I've slipped at least once a day for about a week. Why? I don't know. It seems like a good thing to do at the time. Then I snap out of it.

My problem? Pornography, Mainly live video chat sites. I have a testimony that if I humble myself before god that he will help me through this. But why am I not able to do that when it seems so easy to do?

I start back on day 1 again on what would have been day 21 since I "Turned my life around" I feel like I'm stuck in a whirlpool and all I'd have to do is look up to get out of it. But i'm just to lazy to do it.

Don't let this post get anyone down that is not my intention. This is just a much needed venting session. I still have faith that I will be able to overcome this addiction. I'm just slowly realizing that it will not be as easy as I thought. Thank you all for the support though. It is much needed and appreciated.

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sounds very familiar    
"Man, I thought I was reading my own posts for a minute. Right there with ya buddy. Hang in there."
posted at 14:20:52 on June 26, 2012 by asdfjkl1234
Bro    
"email me"
posted at 18:21:57 on June 27, 2012 by moronidenovo
Me to    
"I've been acting out with internet porn today so im in the dumps and hope I'm not bringing you down.
This defininetly can be a humbleing experience if I stop beating myself up and realize whats best for me. So many things during the day seem to wear at me; I end up feeling sorry for myself which leaves me wide open to acting out. There are definite things that can be done that will keep me sober, but I do agree, I'm too lazy to do them; I guess I'm putting my energies into other things; work etc.. .. . The solution has been established for this particular addiction from before the foundation!!"
posted at 19:23:11 on June 27, 2012 by Anonymous


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"The excuse is given that it is hard to avoid, that it is right at our fingertips and there is no escape. Suppose a storm is raging and the winds howl and the snow swirls about you. You find yourself unable to stop it. But you can dress properly and seek shelter, and the storm will have no effect upon you. Likewise, even though the Internet is saturated with material, you do not have to watch it. You can retreat to the shelter of the gospel and its teaching of cleanliness and virtue and purity of life. "

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004