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Day 35
By anon16
6/18/2012 6:53:55 PM
I'm back on track, mostly. Still struggling, but doing better. The fact that, even though I've struggled I'm on day 35 really helps.

This is, over a period of 4 1/2 years, the second time I've been able to get that far. I've disobeyed my Bishop, something I feel bad about. I took the sacrament Sunday but wasn't told I could. I didn't feel bad about it but maybe I'm just fooling myself. I most likely won't see him for another 3 weeks. I'm considering pulling him aside though.

I'm working at focusing on the Lords will, and not my own. My will would be to not feel guilty about my addiction- to just do it. His will is different.

It's strange. I have more to give because of being on day 35. I never realize until I'm at this point how much mb spiritually zaps me. I'm doing a lot better with cutting also - I know that zaps me also.

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Way to go!    
"Super proud and happy! Keep going, it gets better."
posted at 20:28:42 on June 19, 2012 by beclean


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