My new drug
By anon16
6/5/2012 11:53:06 PM
I've progressed to a new level. Movies. Ugh. I know how I start. It's not with good intent that I watch R movies. PG 13 is almost as bad. Me. I've never before seen any of those. I've always been very good about it. I keep repeating to myself that this is posion for me. That this makes it 10 times worse. That I shouldn't be watching movies. It's like I always have to have a replacement.

I'm not sure what the root of my problem is. I've been working on steps 2 and 3. That's helped. But I can't figure it out exactly. Why I keep pushing my self destruct button.

I only fail when I give up. I'm going to keep trying. But its so hard not to want this.
At least I'm doing better depression wise. Cutting sort of.

Thanks for listening.


Other "addictions"    
"I feel your pain. I've had issues with unintentionally replacing my addiction (porn) with others that are less harmful but still problematic.

One approach that has worked for me has been to actively seek out "healthy addictions" to take their place. For me, this has included coaching my kids' soccer teams, running, exercising, reading scriptures, and prayer. This gives me something healthy to turn to instead.

Prayers and best wishes,
posted at 00:42:31 on June 7, 2012 by Hk-47

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