Restoration of Blessings
By rachp
4/17/2012 10:12:37 PM
Almost a year ago I met with a new Bishop to discuss my issues......not a fun meeting, but I knew it was necessary. I was placed on informal probation...which also was not fun, but I knew it was necessary as well.

I journey along meeting with him three more times, each time because I had slipped up, but I didn't take care of things immediately. I waited and waited. Which didn't help me one bit, but that's how I work.

A month ago I met with my Bishop and we talked about the possibility of me needing to participate in a disciplinary council. I was so caught off guard and it devastated me. He gave me an assignment to study three topics and to report back to him.

The past month I have emailed him twice and shook his hand each Sunday. Never before have I taken an assignment as serious as I did this one. It became something I wanted to do rather than something I was told to do. I studied, prayed and wrote. Miracles do happen.

Tonight I made the appointment with my Bishop just to check in with him like he asked. This is the first time I have looked forward to meeting with him.

We did the usual check in for progress and I was able to tell him I have had no issues in 2.5 months! It felt so good to say this. I have never been able to tell him this. We chatted about what I learned and what has made the difference.

Then he said I still am not sure if a disciplinary council needs to take place so lets pray together and ask the Lord. He prayed and then asked me what the answer was. I could not answer him yes or no. My heart wanted to say no, but part of me was maybe I need one to help me move forward.

He asked if I felt anything either way and the only feeling I had was anxiety. The answer was NO! A sense of peace fell over me. I knew that if I could do the last year, I can do anything. He said he was going to keep me on informal probation and reexplained what that was and I understood why.

Then the tender mercy of the night happened. He told me actually your term of probation is over. And the tears flowed. I have never had my blessings formally taken away. I have chosen in the past to restrict myself from partaking of the sacrament, but never formally.

So to have the sweet, wonderful privilege of being able to renew my covenants each week and I continue to move forward, is a tender mercy.

I feel so blessed to have a loving Heavenly Father who is aware of me and can see effort put forth and the progress I have made and communicate this to my Bishop.

I am grateful for a Bishop who can see the fruits of my labor as well and willing to provide direction to help me move forward.


thank you    
"Thanks for sharing. It really helps when the Spirit is strong like that.
Congrats on making so much progress. It feels so good."
posted at 06:53:31 on April 18, 2012 by anon16

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"Develop discipline of self so that, more and more, you do not have to decide and redecide what you will do when you are confronted with the same temptation time and time again. You need only to decide some things once. How great a blessing it is to be free of agonizing over and over again regarding a temptation. "

— Spencer W. Kimball