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Trying to get back up
By anon16
4/16/2012 9:50:04 AM
Right now I am struggling not to make this day 5 of a binge. I'm not sure that I'll succeed. I am trying to be positive,not dragging myself down. It frustrates me though. I previously got to day 59 and then fell. Longest time for me. I realized that I can get through this. I know the trick is avoidance of anything that is suggestive. I know I need to avoid and try 100% and then I'll succeed. When I've tried the hardest is when I've succeeded in the past. When I get lax is when I fall.

I read the posts about completely surrendering and I know that's the key. I'm trying but am not there yet.

Had a really nice meeting wth my bishop yesterday and it helped-but I still messed up. Seeing him on Wed as well.

The dumb thing is I'm not sure what happened so I'm suddenly off the deep end. I hate it. This is the worst I've been since I started working with my bishop a year ago.

Comments:

Keep on keepin' on!    
"Hey Anon16, I know today is feeling rough, but you're still on the right track. Satan is going to try and have you focus on how stupid you must be for falling into this. In reality, remember that Heavenly Father completely understands your battle, and understands how you're feeling about it. Don't give yourself up to discouragement, because in my experience it just feeds the addiction even worse. You're awesome, and being honest about this is the key to eventually getting over it. Just get through today! Praying for you."
posted at 17:35:08 on April 16, 2012 by Fatherofone
You are his son.    
"I just relapsed after 463 days of sobriety and I know it is hard to get back up and fight a good fight but the thing that I have realized is that my Heavenly Father is the one that needs to do the heavy fighting for me. It is when I surrender my will to him, each moment of each day that I am happiest and most able to live clean. I let myself slowly fall off track and out of touch with God and the program. I have to surrender my life and my will to him. I have to fill my life with good things, scripture, talks from our leaders, inspiring music, heartfelt prayer and kind acts and words. It is definitely not easy but we must strive to see in ourselves the divine potential that our loving father sees. With his help you CAN do it. Hang in there. You are loved and we as your brothers believe in you."
posted at 13:43:38 on April 17, 2012 by CarpeDiem


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