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I wonder sometimes
By terrym
3/22/2012 11:47:55 AM
I've only been at this a few days but sometimes I sit and wonder if blogging is really helping me overcome my addiction or focusing me more on it, or does focusing me on it actually helping me overcome it.

From my experience in the past i would masturbate and then feel bad, stop for a few weeks, try to go thru a repentance process of sorts (more between me and God), try to forgive myself and move on. Then I felt like I would feel the spirit more in my life. I would go about a month with no temptations whatever and then out of nowhere I would have a major temptation and relapse.

Now doing this blogging thing I feel like I am more focused on the fact that I am addicted to masturbation etc. And I read others stories and it keeps that thought in my mind (that I'm addicted to masturbation and pornography). I'm just trying to decide if focusing on it this way is better or good because it does help me remember the pain of relapse or if its not so good because of the idea of focusing on not commiting a sin or replacing a sin with something better.

Yes blogging is replacing looking up porn and masturbation but my thought is maybe I should replace those extracurricular activities with something that has nothing to do with them.... Like playing the guitar or something.

What are your thoughts?

Comments:

I actualy think its the same with Me    
"The time I've spent on this site would have otherwise been used on pornography. Im glad I'm off it now, I'm not afraid to say that. But there is always the danger. I haven't quite declared war on masturbation, because id rather be clean of pornography first. Then, once that's not in my mind anymore or not as much, I'll focus on masturbation. I think sometimes we try to take on the world and we get overwhelmed. Baby steps, I call it.

But another thong I like a out this site is I like to put my opinion in and try to help people. Sometimes that stirs controversy but id rather have that than everyone agreeing and the persons doubts might not be answered. I've been on this site consistently for about 2 weeks, and its helped a lot.

I dont think its bad your on a lot, eventually we'll ease off it when we're More spiritual prepared. I think our mind is kinda shocked we're doing something drastically different. idk, what do you think."
posted at 15:06:40 on March 22, 2012 by moroni
Stop fighting, start living...    
"That's what one Bishop told me.

I try to take breaks from blogging. There might be a week where I am on, simply because I am on the computer or bored. But then I try to not have it be a constant thing. Because it really does still focus your life on your addiction. I don't think you should ever let your guard down but I don't think that your whole life has to be a fight.

I went to the Bishop one time when I was doing pretty well and he asked what I was doing to improve myself. I gave him all the answers: prayers, scriptures, meetings, church, fasting, being careful. And after I listed off all those things, he said "Stop fighting and start living. You can't go your whole life in this battle. Surrender to the Lord and He will fight. Then He'll put you to work." He encouraged me to go be a normal college kid. I needed to socialize. I needed to do service, to go on hikes, to be me. Not just sit in my room and read my scriptures.

His big thing was don't let this addiction consume your life. When we give in, we let it consume. When we constantly fight with it, we let it consume. That's why I started SA because they emphasize surrendering to God.

But I encourage you to not just disappear when you are doing better. Because new people come to this site and they need to know there are people making it through. Imagine if none of the veterans were on here. I'd be a mess. I needed to know there was hope. So it's important that we revisit meetings, blogs, etc to help others (Step 12 Service) but don't let it consume you."
posted at 15:36:12 on March 22, 2012 by iamstrong


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